your nothing but a piece of shithead to me.

i hate you.
i truly do now.

but then again, the hatred i feel now might be just a cover up
for how much i still deeply love you.

but you suck really.
you were never rude with me before.
and now your like a fucking jackass to me. making all sorts of lies and excuses.
since when did you turn into a bastard?
where was the boy i fell in love with?
the nice, sweet young at heart one?

you really do know how to kill someones mood.
i told you days before,
save friday for me.
what part of that did you not understand?
and you go on making other plans?
did i think it was just gonna be you and me?
HONESTLY?
yes i did.
i really did.
but its okay.
it shows how important i am to you.

if i wasnt so sleepy and moody and cranky,
i would have had the energy to cry.
but im so lazy.

band auditions are finally done.
pheww.
and i thank god, im going out tonight with a dear old friend.
hopefully my mind gets cleared up.

toorah.
xoxo