something that was suppose to be done
4 weeks ago when i was back in kl.
teehee.

i got rusty.
sorry.

i want things to go back to normal.
with her.

with him.
especially him.

so things have been rather chaotic. but
im somewhat getting things under control.

i love my figure. in some ways i really do.
i love how im short but people think im atleast 20 or above.
i love how my body's proportionate.
and i have muscles.
sure ive put on a couple of pounds since ive been here.
(damn you melbourne)
and i wish i'd exercise and sweat more so i can loose it again.
but it's something im okay with.

but sometimes i cant help it.
WHY COULDNT I BE MORE LIKE HER?!
would you believe little kendall jenner is only 14?
she's landed herself a modelling contract.





this is pure envy i tell you.
seriously, she doesnt look 14.
click here if you'd like to see more.

grrrrr

it's 12.51am
and i just got back from watching the most talked about movie ever.
and i must say,
me and taty were grabbing on to our seats. and i was there squeeling most of the time.
it was amazing.
it really does question the power of the subconscious mind.
show's the depth of dreams.
i love it.

on another note:
my mood's been matching with the colour of my hair.
RED.
and i was reading e news a few days back.
and guess what i saw.

yeap.
artist Jason Mecler created an art piece of him and kim kardashian and this other
actress which i am certain is not queen latifah
using 500 pieces of RED VINE LICORICE.
how amazing is that?
yummers.

so i ran away from home for a night last night just to get away from everything.
hung out with lam,bryan and lynn.
and by doing that and tonight, ive just missed out on two nights
worth of work.
absolutely freaking awesome -.-
there goes my weekend.

xx

dont ever cross me.
especially when ive got my period.

on another note:
1) i look so fugly it's not even funny -.-

2) mum's on my left reading, lawrence's asleep on my right
and im in between with my laptop.
i like nights like this.
makes it feel like a movie moment. :)

xx

classes were good. more workload.
heh. what's new?

cheer on the other hand,
i flew more today compared to previous practices.
did a few walk ups :)
but fell alot too.
and while i was spotting for someone,
i got knocked on the lip with the person's head.
my left side of my lip is now swollen like crap and bruised.
this aint looking one bit pretty -.-

dammit.
xx

sometimes, i still sit here, looking at your photos, your fb wall,
and i wonder,how did everything change.
dont get me wrong, im not in love with you,i just miss you.i miss the idea of you.
it's been almost a year. and im moving back and forward between being okay and not.
the faster that one day will come, the better i'll be at letting everything go
once and for all.

pictures from after photography class. :P

crystal,sarah,cindy,
missing katie, but
they are the icing on my cupcake, the backbone of my college life.
without them, i would have probably be one hell of a lonely nerd.

lunch at cafe sienna before walking in big w and woolworths.
what a way to spend a day eh?
hahha kidding!
<3 you mum
:D

i'll always be the little princess in the family.
the one who'll always get her way.
the one who wins hearts.
the one everyone in the family adores.
i'll always be that spoilt,precious daughter.
and im glad it's me and no one else.
im the little monster of this family.
im my mother's treasure. :)









xx

so mum turns 54 today :)
the one woman who means the world to me.
my guardian.
i love her to bits despite the fights and quarrels we have,
at the end of the day she knows and i know we both mean well.
i am blessed to have a mother that cares for my well being,
so mum, happy birthday.


this was taken last year.
i somehow cant find a recent picture of you and i. maybe cause we never took one.
but today we shall :)

despite how annoyed and depressed i felt bout being the 5th wheel in this family
and how angry and annoyed i felt this morning when sissy
gave OUR present with tom without me,
im working my way to channel my energy out.
i dont wanna ruin her day. i really dont.
WHY DOES MY RED FRIEND HAVE TO BE SO GOD DAMN LATE! :(
i hate being so emotional.

sorry for the lack of posts,
as for the good news,
first week of college is over. :)
another 16 more weeks till i go home! wheee!

classes have been tiring as usual.
wednesday,me and a few other redbacks mended the Redback booth
for the mid year orientation day.
and omg, i with cheerleaders weren't labelled as a gay sport or plain retarded -.-
the stares and comments we had were plain ridiculous.
but whatever, hopefully we manage to recruit a few lot. :)

today was the first ever photography class for the year.
and somehow, i can see myself really enjoying it. :)
4 hours, and we learnt SO much. im not kidding. it's pretty cool,i finally know how to create pictures that i've seen before and always thought were cool.

it's back to the boring old life.
so yeah :)

how's your week been?
i probably cant hear your comments, but if they were good, *high five*
if they were not so great,
chin up love. :)

ps: im really starting to miss hearing from you.

xx

cheer gets boring nowadays since lots of em are missing.
but i did a walk up on sunday which was good.
i was gonna do more today but i didnt feel ready for some odd reason.

lucky told me to choreo a motion dance for em to learn for fun. which i did.
i just havent been able to teach them cause as usual,
we all get caught up with stunts (:

orientation day is happening tomorrow,
and me,tiff,dave and edith are mending the booth cause
we're too good ;)
so if you're around bowen street, do come and check it out yeah?

my first mail came today.
from Tony Bianco, the shoe shop.
and guess how they spelt my name



i've apparently now turned half indian
-.-

xx

guess who got top scorer for design com?! :)
yes that's right! ME!
woooh!

scored a 74% which is a distinction for production skills.
im pretty pleased considering how much i hated that subject.

it's good to know all my hardwork is paying off. :')
two more to get back tomorrow.
i is scared.
and we've got a new brief for design com and productions skills.
-.-
here we go again.

xx

this reminds me of sarah for some reason.
speaking of barbies,
i have no idea where all of mine went -.-

back in melbourne.
i forgot how freezing it can be.
seeing lynn and ashwin for lunch and then i have cheer.
feels good to be 'home'.

but im highly disappointed i didnt get to watch my 3 movies :(
-toy story 3
-despicable me
-karate kid.

someone wanna watch it with me here? :D

the picture speaks everything for itself.
im loast at crossroads.
i could sit back here and play the good friend, be the one to count on,
but really, im
the one who's dying to say
that you're everything a girl wants,everything I want.
i could list em all out for you but i wont do it here cause then it wont be special.
i'd say em all to you and mean every single word.
i'll let you in on a little secret, you've got no idea how some days, you manage to turn my frown
upside down.

i like you. but im not sure if you know it.
(but somewhere inside, i know you do)

ive never felt so homesick.
i feel like i have unfinished business here.

i got to see dad,karen and the kids. :)
it's been agessss.

they took us to tenji.
and as expected,
we pigged out like crazy since it was a buffet.
(there goes my diet)
epic fail la.

i wonder what i'd look like if i were obese.












meet my adiks. :)
kaizer and koen.













xx

i leave for melbourne the day after tomorrow.
two weeks have surely gone by so fast.
im not ready for second semester :(

been meeting everyone possible.
saw sarah,nic and kieran yesterday.
hung out with mum and sissy for a full body massage. :D
and the plans i had for a mani and pedi got crushed when the place
i wanted to go to was fully booked. HEH.

tomorrow, it's the last day to see everyone.
so im gonna be running around here and there.
*cross my fingers*
i get to see wui yang and danial as planned.
but both are not replying me so that sucks -.-

psssht.
i dont wanna go home just yet :(

pictures of granny's 80th birthday

i look really chubby here o.o











you gotta admit, she looks mighty fine for 80. ;)


cheap advertising.
HAH.

xx