you know, how i wish i could be that spoilt brat
who gets everything she wants when she wants it.
and doesnt need to have that feeling of envy or jealousy when you read
on people's blog bout how they just got their
new iphone,mac book or a designer good or
sunnies or shoes or even a whole wardrobe full of things.

but my mumma thought me well.
she thought me to RESIST.
cause good things comes when you least expect it. :)

a very important thing to remember.

sweet cravings.

so i got up late today. lol
all i recall was checking the time on my phone and going
"OH SHIT!"
cause it was already 6.55. which is about the time i usually get ready to leave the house
on normal days.
and i run to mum's room and switch on the pump and find
her awake and screaming at me going,
"LATE RIGHT?! LATE RIGHT?! SLEEP LATE SOME MORE!"
"NEXT TIME NO MORE GOING ON THE COMP AT NIGHT
OR GOING ON THE PHONE! IF NOT!....."

yeah. and then it was more yelling with her and daisy. lol

and my usual morning schedule which is roughly around 30 minutes got squeezed
to just10 minutes. :) and i was out of the house. lol
(i didnt get to eat or dry my hair.)
so when i got to school, i looked like a mess. ;p

other than that, the day went pretty okay. i was constantly finding lessons
to doze off in. lol.
i have no idea why i was so tired. and literally, i was eating the whole day.
ask my class mates. i finished my lunch and break that was packed for me
within the first 2 hrs of school, and two omelets to support the prom,
lunch rice, and like bits and pieces of people's food. lol
i was extremely hungry and sleepy today. -.-

modern dance prelims for the other classes were today.
and i have to admit. some were pretty amazing.
gah!
i hope we get in. :(

well, my results are rather satisfying. and im gonna enjoy the amount of a's.
cause with form 4 work in mid year, im
saying good bye to those a's. :)
lol.

study time tomorrow.
BIO.
grrr.

xoxo

you know what sounds extremely good?

shopping at telawi street. :)

heat wave, please go away.

we did our prelims for modern dance just now.
wasnt as bad as we thought it would have been la. so
some forgot steps and some were early here and there.
but mind you, we only
finished the routine yesterday. :D lol.
so we did pretty awesome though we were messy.

other than that everything else seems okay.
my results are pleasing for me. i mean i could have scored higher.
but yeah i guess my brain capacity only could hold that much.
so far,
BM- 73 B3
ENG- 83 A2
ADD MATH- 100 A1
SEJ- 76 A2
EST- 100 A1
CHEM- 77 A2
PHYSICS- 90 A1
MORAL- 82 A2
BIO- 70 B3
MATHS- 87 A1

yeah. i could have gotten higher for bio, if
i wasnt so careless.
gah!

well, gary came over last night again for dinner.
then we stopped by jian yong's. :)
and then we hit the park for a short while then it was home again.
omg. i got to see his cute cousin!
eeek!
:D
so comel.
with like the brown curls and the big eyes. (:
yeah. lol

sigh. im gonna start my studying again this weekend. sigh.
cause ive got no distractions. :)
other than lunch with my class boys on saturday i think
im absolutely free.
wheee.
since the boyfriend will be at pd for the whole weekend.
its peace and quiet time for me. :)
unless i decide to bug my buddy. lol

moral kerja amal,
why do you have to be such a pain?

xoxo

sunday midnight walks. :)

sunday midnight walks.
cats.
swings.
stars.
tv.
leg cramps.
hot bike jacket.

thank you for coming by.

:)


just came back from the gym with jian yong. ;)
stupid boy.
i had to tow his bicycle all the way back home cause he was lazy to.
lol.

school was fun today.
and guess what, after a long time.
i finally scored back my A in moral! 82! whooh! :)

paramount modern dance is either on wednesday or thursday.
so its studio after school tomorrow. sigh.
oh oh!
and its the form 5's last school field trip. :(

back to business.
xoxo

edit

im finally back home. (:

mum picked me from the hse around 2 to leave for dance practice at
smash.
which turned out pretty awesome.
and then got picked up around 5.30 and then
it was off to granny's for our usual sunday dinner.
(:

we wanted to go to end of seasons but it was closed. :(
sigh.
so we came home. and i just showered.
oh oh! just now,
on the way to smash,
I SAW A BUSH FIRE ALONG THE HIGHWAY!
IT WAS SOOO COOL! :)
lol

jelly's coming over i think later.
surprisingly mum's alright with it. so phew! (:

xoxo

another sunday. (:

so yes. im up.
was up since 8.
and since i was so bored and was trying to find excuses to not
finish my bm essay,
i decided to spring clean my bathroom.
the amount of face masks and free sample bottles me and my sister
have been collecting in our bathroom is amazing. so now. its like super clean. (:
lol

and i did my room too. whee.


anyway,
last monday was our ethical grooming seminar.
which was by xixili, silkygirl and mrs ampi. (:

basically,
xixili was talking bout how we women, should care for our breasts. :)
yes you heard me right.
quite the fun la.
you should have seen nabihah. lol.
speaking of that girl,
she volunteered to show us girls how atleast 90% of the girls sitting in the room,
were wearing the wrong size.

you know her la. :)
overly excited over the smallest things. lol

turns out she's two sizes bigger than what she was.
damn. lol.
and guess what, she got to keep the bra they gave her. how unfair.


they had goodie bags too. :)

next was silky girl.
all they did was show how exactly to apply all the concealer and foundation
and stuffies and to promote their new products.
two models to demonstrate.
me,





and diana,



and of course, we left with goodie bags.



it was like shopping at school. :) all the free things. whee.

mrs ampi spoke bout manners and courtesy. :)
and her lifetime experiences. so yeah.
and monday was over after that.

my nose is blocked and im not even crying.

i cant stop sneezing!
>.<
help me.

my eyes are extremely red from doing absolutely nothing.
bah!

came back from the gardens bout an hour ago.
didnt spend a dime except for food. :)

but it was nice la. having to indulge the nice ambiance. :)

200 words more to go! whooh!

my infinite playlist

dance practice got canceled.
which is a bummer.
cause i was so prepared to like dance and crack my brain for new moves.
bah!

so im guessing its tomorrow then.
chad's at kitt's house. ;( i never thought i'd miss him. grrr.

so i'm spending my afternoon in front of the comp with my bm karangan
book on my left. :)
im staring into it. as it stares back at me.

dinner at garden's tonight. :)
mum decided to take me for a walk.
whooh.
i know it best when it comes to designer goods. ;)

we cant count properly. lol

but because you insisted that its the 7th day.
happy one week. :)

im sick

gah!
when your sneezing 24/7 and cant stop coughing and your throat is dry.
what do you do? :(

plans to go out with jelly failed. due to him having tuition.
and so i resulted in having dance practice after all.
kitt's probably overjoyed. lol.

so the weekend plans are set. :)
dance practice both days at smash. whooh.
such a nice way to sweat. lol
prelims here we come. :D

omg.
my bm essay is calling my name out. damn you.
-.-

they call me Q1

two hours after school
and im done with the two kerja amal's i was suppose to redo. :)
along with add maths homework.

now im actually relaxing.
and im suppose to find points for my bm essay online.
here we go... -.-
a 1200 word essay due monday.

paramount dance was postponed to next thursday.
so looks like studio for us this sunday. sigh!

im never gonna breathe without worrying bout anything.

on a brighter note:
all my results are a's. except bm. though i might have dropped
from calss test 1. its still an a. :)

xoxo

random pictures.

so i stumbled on people's pages and found pictures. :)

enjoy.



you know that face when you're out of breathe but you
still are forced to smile? yeah. :)










it looks rather awesome. :)
omg. im gonna miss em la. :(


this is on purpose. i couldnt help it. :)
5 bucks if you see a smiling boy. whooh! lol



prom-open day



new girl in town




we go together.



and mamma mia. (:









p&a last year.

my suprise sweet 16th. :)





xoxo

oh yeah!

i just got the original dvd for twilight! whooh!

:D

movie night by myself here i come. :)
after

1) modern dancing
2) 4 more exams

sigh.

18/4/09

i gotta admit. you caught me off guard
when you told me "... "
but i told myself, its a choice im gonna have to make. its either i take the
risk and move forward. or be a wuss and rewind backwards and tell
myself we never happened.
which would be a lie cause we did.

and im trusting myself with you.
and im trusting you not to break my heart.
and you said it yourself you wanted to start us off new.
and im gonna make sure that it goes well.
because hell, ive already committed myself to you long ago.
and i hope you do too.
regardless of everything
im gonna make sure nothing will jeopardize us.

and we came to a conclusion last night.
and i like what it is. (:
so..
from yesterday onwards.
you are indeed officially mine. :)

open day

is finally over.
thank god for that.

running up and down screaming from left to right making sure i had everyone.
omg. it was so chaotic.
but it was a success.
and indeed my last cheer performance ever in high school. :(

after everything,
i showered. and headed to ou with elisa.
sakae sushi for lunch. yumm.. :)

and then the boys came and we went to watch knowing.
the concept it kinda cool. i gotta admit.
but it was hard for me to concentrate in the cinema. lol. cause i had gary who couldnt stop
talking. lol. or more like that was me. hah.

and then we went walking around
and dinner at delicious. :) we werent hungry then so we took something light,
and the brownie i insisted on but after a while
we got jelak of it. :P
last night would be the first time i ever sat down to talk to him like properly.
and it was nice la.
and he paid for dinner. :)

and it was more walking around and talking.
and yeah.

the day ended nicely la. :)

sad. i have a camera but never used it
cause i was so busy.
but i know some people have my pictures.
so im gonna wait till i grab it from them. lol


look look! its batman! :D
doesnt jian yong look so awesome. hah
too bad i never took one with spidey. ;)



study time.
sigh

xoxo

good things come when you least expect it

isnt it pretty?
when that sudden chemical reaction between the fuel(to make the sparks and
other components like titanuim for bright coloured sparks) triggers the light energy
to be produced causing it to sparkle?
that only with the presence of fire, the reaction can only be completed.
and nothing else matters? cause once lit, its impossible or should i say
hard to extinguish it due to its slow burning composition?
you know what holds all these compositions together? something called nitrocellulose.
see, it has to be stuck together in order for it to work successfully.
but yes im pretty sure when the flames hit you it might hurt.
but its not gonna leave a permanent mark. maybe just a few burns
to teach you a lesson or two to be more careful right?

kinda like us dont you think?

im giving the most obvious hints i want you. and im not sure if you actually understand.
whats stopping it?
clearly im able to cope with anything. im actually in the best place i could ever be.

my day went from really bad to really good yesterday. (:

you wanna know with what?

im allowed to brag about this for a while. cause come on, dont tell me
you wouldnt if you were me.

i scored 100 for add maths! :D whooh!


and yeah.

lisa's finally posting up pictures.
and i decided two deserve the credit of being posted cause they look nice. :)




yes. these. :)

xoxo

gym after school with jian yong.

cheer and prom the musical during school.

and endless sleep before school.


thats my schedule. lol.

mum's given me an alternative.
its either i use some of my savings for the kk trip. cause lets face it, she aint
gonna pay all 2ooo plus.
or i use whatever she's kept aside from deducting 20 bucks from my allowance since the beginning of the year,
to spend it aussie..

im lost. its between

and awesome experience.

or extremely good shopping. -.-

im tired.

prom the musical practices are killing me.
and so is cheer.

but its fun la.
:)

and and.. ive been heading to the gym almost everyday. whooh!
in fact, i just came back from there not long ago.
and guess who joined me?lol

sticky icky jian yong. :)


add maths homework is calling my name.
but i dont understand a thing in the chapter im learning now.
so how now brown cow?

tomorrow's full dress for prom. its funny how fast i forget things.
sigh.
im getting old.

attention all readers: please head to the link on the right hand corner to vote
for this years from queen and king nominee. :)

yeap.

you know what makes me feel loads better..:)

staring at this:


*breathes*
yes. it so does. :)

lol.

and movie day is coming soon!!!
im excited. :)

you are the only place i feel calmest and safest to go to.

save me from this mess

what do you do when things at home arent okay?
what do you do when your mum isnt okay with your sister?
what do you do when you've got to be the lampost?
what do you do when she's ranting everything out to you?
what do you do when your mum fights with your grandmother over this and you
can hear them yelling at each other?
what do you do when your mother has broken the picture frame which had your sister's
picture in it?
what do you do if she's now bleeding from breaking it?

what do you do if you were me?

this is not a home.
this is not my family.

they're better than this.

what do you do when you know you cant do anything about it?

xoxo

my sunshine's having a bike test. :)

its amazing how many people
adore david archuleta.
lol.

after a one day visit to our school? lol
damn.

i bet his showcase was awesome.
im probably saying this cause i was rotting at home for the whole day.
doing what?
studying chemistry and physics. :)

its the second weekend in a row i have not been out.
im so proud of myself. :)
wheee.
see. told you ma and lawrence i CAN survive not shopping. :)
though its killing me to see whats new in stores.
gah!
one more week one more week! -.-

its a sunday morning and im planning to touch my bm novel papers
today.

oh i hate you leenna. :)
im gonna let the whole world
I HATE LEENNA VJ.

you wanna know why?
let her tell you why. :)

im off to feed on more brownies that i baked yesterday.:)

xoxo

pictures. courtesy of chien teng

she teased me throughout the whole afternoon.
:p
i wasnt a big fan, but for the sake of the publicity, whooh! :)


jj and ean.






we had the administrator take these. :)




yes, we were one of the privileged students. :)


ashywn us
omg! now we all know david archuleta doesnt know how to sign!
why?
no one is so gonna belive me that this is his!*shows paper*
hahhaha!

(no guys seriously, it is real. :P)


squishing through the crowd was hell!


you gotta admit, he's kinda cute.


taken from the star,




i couldnt help it. :)
i thought he looked adorable.

even mum said so. lol

simply blessed.

Five things made my day today after
having the worst night ever.

1) i got mention on the star online website. ;)
and it didnt get misquoted. :)


double click to view larger.

2) add maths test was easy!

3) tuition got canceled so i manage to sleep for like a good two hours
after coming home from having my ikea meatballs craving. :)

4) i cooled down at the gym and spent nearly and hour just sitting
and talking with jian yong.
and for someone who i dont really know well, he opened up alot to me.
:)

and lastly,

5) things are working out just fine.

you couldnt be more oblivious.

i cannot belive im saying this.
but the only thing keeping me sane. is actually driving me up the roof at the same time.
you know, i accept all your flaws.
EVERYTHING. and im willing to help you change cause thats
what you wanted as well,
but the one thing i will not tolerate is
to be pushed and pulled whenever you feel like it. cause damn it,
i have fucking feelings. -.-

it hurts me when your friends are the ones who notices me
and not you.
and it hurts when im doing all the effort and your not doing shit.
atleast have the courtesy to reply me
or atleast look me in the eye or even spend abit more time with me.
why is it your friends's opinions matter so much more than mine?
dont i count for something?
if not, whats the whole point in going through all of this?

its not a year for me to be the broken hearted.
to be honest
i have more things that are far more important.
but im willing to take the risk cause deep down my stubborn head of mine
i know you're worth it and that things will get better.
but i need to see it happen before i can actually belive it.

call me stubborn, selfish, a brat, whatever you want.
but you have got to understand
that i need to see you to fight for me because thats the only way i know
you're wanting this as much as i do!
it feels so awesome to actually feel wanted.
there are times you treat me like a princess and i love that.
and sometimes you treat me like shit and im wondering, what the hell?

please please please help me, help yourself.
the elastic band holding me together can only stretch so far.
i dont wanna loose you.
dont get me wrong. im just loosing it.
♥

David A.?

yes yes. :)
how awesome is it that my school had
David archuleta
as part of winning the hitz.fm competition.


yeah. he sang. :)

and what was even better,
i was even luckier to even have a short meet and greet with him and
along with other privilege students
who had the same opportunity as i did.
suckers!

i love making you fans out there jealous. ;)
and what was even better,
i had a star journalist taking down some of my words. :)
whooh!

im pretty sure all the group photos will be in the star tomorrow or something.
im currently waiting form chien teng. lol

quite the hectic la today.
a girl got like totally pushed back from the body guards after hugging him.
lol.
and many went crazy cause they got to shook his hands.
sigh.

kids these days. :)
i feel so sorry for him. lol.

rewind...
i lost debate. lol :(
i really couldnt have bothered. i had class test and everything else to handle.
and i was so lost cause the opposition team was good. no doubt.
but they didnt reject nor accept our parameters and
cause of that, we didnt know how to like rebutt their points cause their points went agaisnt
our parameters but yeah.
it was so confusing. but congrats for them. ;)
im not bugged. i still have modern dancing to do and shit loads more. sigh.

first week of class test just passed.
thank god.
another week more. sigh.

and then its mid years. :S
shit.
i havent even touched my form 4 stuff. die wei!

ive been selling pancakes! :D
yes.
in support of the PROM COMMITTEE. :D

please buy!!! we guarantee you the satisfaction! :D

we met up with the lighting dude today.
omg.
it looks so awesome! like the things they could do.
and the guy is like totally good with the entertainment selection. so yeah.

school's doing their prom as well and would like a good organizer/light and sound person
lemme know. :)
i'll hook you up. they offer the best quality of things. i guarantee you. :)

im off to do add maths.
die. -.-

xoxo

lesson learnt

first thing you have to know before
you're gonna play a certain sport,
is that you should know
THE CORRECT way of playing it.

if not...
you may get hurt. :)

take me for example.
i totally forgot how to play volleyball
and insisted on playing anyway so long as i could hit the ball.

and now, i have this,



yeah.
i think its internally bleeding.lol
see the small dots? lol


the preview for modern dancing was today.
and surprisingly we had good comments despite how unprepared we were this morning.
and right after that,
me and leenna and nabbers decided to head to gardens to check out the ballroom.
KDU's senior prom has a 80% chance that we're doing it there.
so spread the news people. :)

and everything wasnt so bad.
now we kinda have a rough idea of what the place looks like.










wanna see what leenna looks like without a neck??
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tada! :D

tuition was canceled. which is a relief. cause
im dead exhausted. and i have
to finish up my moral kerja amal. -.-
its funny having to pose for my project. but i have to admit, my
maid takes some pretty good shots. :)


i like this shot for some reason. :)


im being a nerd this whole weekend man.
all im doing is like study, homework, study, project.
grrr.

open day is coming up. :D
thats something to look forward too.
its on the 18th of april. :)
which sucks at the same time,
cause ive got class test 2 to worry about. :S yikes.
and green hse cheer practices and as well as prom the musical.
im excited! :D
come people! yes?

debate on monday.
:S
HELP!