yawn

considering i slept at 3 last night
and had to get up at 9 this morning,
im freaking sleepy. -.-

followed mum to ou and got there around 10.

i:
-walked around with her to wait for the rest of ze gang to come.
-bought a dress from zara (i know. i shouldnt have)
-ate like a pig for lunch
-met up with nabihah who was also there with aaron.
-enjoyed walking around with them ladies. ;)

how often do you go with your mum and her friends to give their friend a total
makeover eh.
quite the interesting la.

and now, im
going to take a nap.
and then MAYBE do a sejarah module paper.
omg.
i dont know how people can be so rajin. -.-


you cant really see the design,
but you get the idea.
its a very very nice lbd. :)

xx

ive got that new im-a-single-girl swag

i fucking give up working with adobe softwares. -.-
where's my photoshop?
how come there were such canggih things called indesign which is a useless piece of
shit. -.-
ive spent nearly 2 hours trying to work the bloody thing.
mother ass.

mummy and ze gang is taking aunty jessy for a wardrobe
makeover.
and i figured, why not and tag along. :)
fashion consultant. whoohoo!

yes, which means i should be getting my sleep now considering they're
meeting up pretty early tomorrow.
meh!

xx

edit

i just got back from ou.
yes its late. lol.

with these two idiots:









it was fun la,
we ended up eating at new york new york,
walked around here and there going to all sorts of it computer shops
hearing them talk about their stupid games. -.-
and looking at all sorts of gaming pads. pfft.

then we decided to settle down at coffee bean
to chit chat and drink.

and then they sent me home.:)

the conversations that we have every time we go out
never fails to take my mind off things.
i miss that feeling.

xx

its a need to know basis sweetheart.

so you see right,
i was in the mids of downloading softwares and everything
last night until...
POOF.
my computer shuts down.
turns out the wires and the fuse had something wrong. and half the electrical
appliances and lights in the house was out.

but thank goodness for the tv
i had something to do while waiting for the freaking tnb.
ended up watching shutter (i still think the thai version is scarier)
and god knows what.
considering the comp wasnt gonna come back on any sooner i fell asleep around 2.

woke up to my fan off and my air cond blasting at 4 am.
and i saw my computer switches on.
so i kinda figured they came back to fix it.

and now im here. :)
azreen couldnt make it. heh
so im meeting with her another day. means ive got the whole afternoon free again
till evening
and then its grandma's and ou with adrian and nic. whee.

xx

3 weeks.

im completely bored at home.
attempted to do add maths and failed. i'll go back and do maths later.
i wanna go for tea or dinner with someone. :(
grrr.

so here i am scoundering all the nice songs from oth.

edit://
its now 6.30 and the only time i ate was breakfast.
i havent had anything since.
thats why i hate the weekends and when im home.
im so glued to the comp i dont bother doing anything else.
even eating.
heh

"i can't be superman
and save you, save you
you're falling way too fast to save

i swear, i swear
you'll let me down
but every second you're around
you pick me right up off the ground."
-superman (save you), friday night boys

the perfect bitch face

today:
-we took our class pictures AGAIN.
and it turned out awesome. lol
-we ended up camwhoring alot AFTER the photoshoot.
- zul didnt bring gucci. :( so i didnt get to play with her.

i wish:
-you wouldnt be such a bitch. (so much for not ignoring me)
-i could get more sleep.
-i could hear from you.
sigh










































just because i can.

xoxo

because i couldnt have asked for anyone better

because i think i would really cry when we all go our own ways

molefrie!

today:
-we took our class pictures which im yet to get from danish.
- goofed around the whole time.
-i played with a snake after school.
- i actually did work in class. lol.
-me and nasri came up with the coolest word ever, and no one will know what it means. ;)


and we're taking our class shot tomorrow again.:)
dont ask why.
we're just fussy people. lol

xoxo

you shook it upside down

edit://

today at school:
- we had a debate on the proper way of pronouncing the word : throbbing
(mind you, it was us versus ben. )
- we bitched bout loads of people. lol
-i fought and yelled with ben after lunch (which i feel sorry for. but you really
piss me off sometimes)
-had a comfort talk with johann, jia shern and naddy.
-laughed my ass off after school and during chemistry. (mr sai mun's the best ;) )
-i scored a 51 for moral. (highest was 63)
the subject is useless i tell you. -.-

yeah.
thats how good school was today.

off to do my essay and other things.
ive now taken the roll of not only secretary but treasurer of the prom committee.
great. -.-

xoxo

english

ms anjali has decided to give me
the task of writing an english essay for the school magazine.
omg. -.-

im here half asleep trying to write my essay.
but i thank god ive got such a lovely sister who's gonna help me with it. :D

school wasnt so bad.
we had 6 free periods of absolutely nothing.
adriantandemie
i have 6 free periods today.
you know, when i first read it i thought you meant you had your period.
i was thinking that was shit loads of blood!
omg! you're disgusting. :p
how am i suppose to know. you women.
pfft.

yeah i wasnt the good girl today.;)
i texted the whole time in class. even in front of mr sai mun. lol
i kinda liked it.
it was a very carefree day. :)

mmhm.
xoxo

oh wait. you did. -.-

independence is something im yet to figure out.

happy 52nd merdeka malaysia.
do us proud for the years yet to come. (:

so much for fireworks.
there was practically no BOOMS OR BANGS.
so i ended up sleeping
around 12.
grrrr



i have no idea whats on the agenda for today.
bummer.
school's starting tomorrow. :(

xx
edit//

so, i spent my whole afternoon watching tv. :)
the biggest looser in particular and everything else on the cooking channels. lol
till i made mum go grocery shopping at giant.
spent an hour or so there and then came home
to more tv.
and here i am.
:)

i need to go back to school.
its getting boring at home.
sigh.
results. :(
f you.

xoxo

quietly outspoken

yawn.
im such a lazy ass.
i got up like half an hour ago. lol.
grrr.

im starting to get bored already.
sei lor.
i dont wanna start studying yet,
which means, i can either read, clean up my room or watch tv.
why is it so limited. :(

xoxo

i miss you so.

i want a punching bag please?

this made me laugh pretty hard. :)

sigh. alot of plans backfired.
dad couldnt make it due to a meeting he had to go for suddenly.
so yeah.
ended up following mum with her errands.

guess what? im grounded.
whopee.
dont ask why. lol

but like i had plans to go anywhere.
tomorrow night would have been hell to go anywhere. and im
not in the mood to face ou or curve.
so i planned
to sit by my rooftop to see the fireworks at klcc (if there is any)
cause my house has the best view. ;)

tomorrow: studying time.
its time for Q1 to come back.
xoxo

PS: give me a boy who can serenade like this:
click
and i promise you, i'll fall to the grounds. :)

PSS: i have two new gold fishes as pets. :)
and i named them bob and lola.
i wonder why i do this to myself sometimes.
i think its cause i need us to be alive in some other form than humans.

they say its the most deserving people that cannot help but love those who destroy them.

i think in some weird way, thats kinda true.

im uncertain bout the both of us now,

where we stand.

or more like what we are anymore.

sigh.

but im sorta glad ive got a few days alone to think to myself.

your song to me: already gone-kelly clarkson.

i think it best describes what you did.

xx

my homies.

picked up my super uber hot red sexy specs. ;)

they look darn good.

lol.

got dropped of at the curve,

because dearest megan ben and nick and thomas and azizul

wanted to take me out. :)

and besides, it was thomas's birthday too.

sorry i dont have a picture with you. lol.

got picked up and sent home by dad.

didnt really join the rest for dinner.

and in a way im glad i didnt.

i sorta wanted to stay home today and sulk. aha!

not.

i'll probably go throw stones at jian yong's or jeffrey's house later.

(totally kidding)

im seeing dad tomorrow for a proper sit down celebration.

which means i get to see my little brothers! :)

can you belive it?

my brother is only 6 and he knows how to search for songs and videos on the net. -.-

he's even tried finding videos on how to solve the rubics cube. -.-

oh my god right?

when i was 6 i could barely read or write properly.

i smell a genius coming along in the family. lol

xoxo

uncontrollable.

 

sigh.

you've put me through all sorts of rings an hoops to jump into.

you've made me stretch my patience beyond my limit.

you've made me break down those walls that guarded my heart so carefully for nearly two years.

and because of that,

i think ive lost my friends respect.

i used to be someone who was so independently strong.

and now,

im a fool for being so emotionally attached (as how adrian would have put it)

i may be use to it now.

but it is impossible for me to not care.

 i guess im sorry for expecting too much from a person.

its funny how one minute you're calling me

to apologize for being such an ass,

and the next you call me and we're arguing like a couple.

maybe we still are.

its just our title that keeps us bound from still being what we truly are.

or im probably just being in denial right now thinking we can still have what we had.

but the thing i cant wrap my head around,

is whether or not i want it still. 

its seriously mind boggling.

you're afraid to get close to me again,

because your feelings for me might backfire.that you could still want me again.

i cant see how that is wrong.

but its as though right now, you're just challenging fate.

well let me know how that works out for you.

because whether you like it or not,

or whether you wanna accept it or not,

im not going anywhere.

and you'll still be mine.

PS:i know i shouldnt be saying this, but i miss you.

as much of an ass you've been to me.

xx

happy birthday pops.

happy birthday pops.

:)

hopefully i'll be seeing you later.

xx

when all else fails, choose to be a lesbian! :)

just got back from heading to the curve with this fella,

:)

yes, he decided to be oh so nice and take me out. hah!

but its cool.

i like talking to him.

considering how negative he is, he reminds me off myself.

but he usually listens to all my shit.

i wonder how he does it. lol

thanks bub.

xx

your nothing but a piece of shithead to me.

i hate you.
i truly do now.

but then again, the hatred i feel now might be just a cover up
for how much i still deeply love you.

but you suck really.
you were never rude with me before.
and now your like a fucking jackass to me. making all sorts of lies and excuses.
since when did you turn into a bastard?
where was the boy i fell in love with?
the nice, sweet young at heart one?

you really do know how to kill someones mood.
i told you days before,
save friday for me.
what part of that did you not understand?
and you go on making other plans?
did i think it was just gonna be you and me?
HONESTLY?
yes i did.
i really did.
but its okay.
it shows how important i am to you.

if i wasnt so sleepy and moody and cranky,
i would have had the energy to cry.
but im so lazy.

band auditions are finally done.
pheww.
and i thank god, im going out tonight with a dear old friend.
hopefully my mind gets cleared up.

toorah.
xoxo