im feeling so concieted.

i just came back.
with mother dearest. where?
from bangsar village.
had late lunch at marmalade.
and walked the shops. i bought a top. she bought shoes. aha.
and then some grocery shopping.

and then we headed to see grandma. and ate some more.
and then came home.

im kinda sick of looking at food. heh.

and now its back to history time.

taa.
xx

we can all get real drunk tonight.

today:
-im up earlier than usual.
-am currently doing add maths.
*chants to herself: im going to study im going to study!*


someone please call me out for an open house! :(

i dont wanna be with my books today!
mumma! where did you go?! you left me at home! :(
alone with add maths and sejarah!

xx

selamat hari raya

i love it how
families during this festive season all dress
colour coordinately.
unlike some chinese families (like mine) dont.
-.-
and you see the whole bunch in jinjang colours.
one in red, one in pink, one in blue la.
its so sad.
we dont look so uniform. ive always been amazed at that fact.

im begging mumma for a new kebaya. cause the one i had,
was when i was in primary.
yes people, i grew back then. -.-
so i cant fit it anymore. and she's gonna take me to get one somewhere this week. :D

missed out on aleena's and syida's open house.
mumma needed help with aunty rahmah's deco. and so i helped her out.
and then we came home and went for tea at aunty rozita's.
and right now, i should shower to head to aunty rahma's.
sigh. more eating.
its gonna be a long night tonight.
and more rendang. ahaha.

xx

edit://
i just got home.
im dead tired.
i have no idea bout my plans tomorrow. -.-
i hung out with the old fuddy duddies.
despite seeing really cute guys there. ahaha.
who are all younger than me -.-
but watever, the parents are always awesome.
i feel so intellectual every time i sit with them :D aha!
but it was good.
and i got duit raya too!
:)
im not so broke anymore. lol.

xx

patron tequila

go listen to it.
its a nice song. ;)

today:
- i cant go for aleena's nor syida's open house. why?
ive gotta help mum do the flowers for aunty rahmah's dinner this evening
which btw, we're going for.
- actually have to study cause if not im gonna feel SOO guilty.
-will be eating alot. :S oh snap.


SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL MUSLIMS.
HOPE YOU GUYS HAVE A GREAT ONE AND ENJOY YOURSELF
AS I WILL WITH THE LEMANG'S AND RENDANG AND CURRY! :)
YUMMERS.

xx

a note for a note

if you solemnly swear that you've always said what your heart tells you to
then you are a person of honesty.
if you solemnly swear that you've always believed in things like love and everything beyond this world,
then you are a person of faith.
if you solemnly swear that you know the difference between love and lust and know how to
separate yourself from temptation,
then you are a person of good judgement.
if you solemnly swear that you could want no one else but me and i know for all the right reasons,
then you are a person of trust.
if you solemnly swear that you know the difference between whats right and whats wrong and who the blame falls on,
then you are a person of fairness.
if you solemnly swear that you're expressions are never fake and you will always be there
then you are a person of comfort.

but what happens
when good things come to an end?
that you can no longer differentiate between wise and worthy or stupid and foolish?
when people you trust lie?
when people you love loose hope and isnt fair anymore?
when people just lose their better judgment on things?
when people you look out for just doesnt see you?

thats when people pull and stretch the string we all walk on.
the string of life.
and sooner or later, its gonna break.
and WHEN IT DOES,
the world will come to a screeching HALT


xx

a frozen heart that's still beating.

last night:
(right after tuition)
- i got ready and waited for adrian to come pick me up.
-we headed to ou to meet the rest at bondi beach.
(nic's reservation at tony romas was given away cause we were all late! aha!)
- ate like a pig since we had a no restriction budget thanks to nic. ;)
- they were bored after, so we waited for a while till weng yan's parents came to pick her up.
then the boys decided to go to breakers. i didnt wanna go.
but they were sending me home. so follow je la. -.-
5 boys against 1 girl. i couldnt do much.
- we discovered how video calling worked with my phone and kun's.
it was damn funny.
- watched everyone foos for a bit.
-got to see alot of the ex form 5's. even joel! :D:D
-nic and adrian sent me home.
- and i collapsed on the bed not very long after. aha!


the birthday boy coming monday.


jason and akram


tim.

l


weng yan


i dont think i need any intro's for him.


the grouch or (the future rapist of my children) :)
lol








today:
-im doing bio.
-im gonna bum around.

xx

5

" im still loving you like it was the first time,
like the very first time "

- never leave you, tinchy stryder

sigh.
numbers today seem very significant to me.
happy 5 to the couple that died long ago.


Juliet: im hurting so badly Romeo. cant you see it?
Romeo: you look perfectly fine to me.

xx

achoo.

i slept at 1. doing what?
my class page.
as you can see below.

today:
- I PASSED MY UNDANG! :)
whooh.
- havent eaten all day till just only.
- i have no tuition and might go out later with tan and nick. depending how my time goes.
- i have homework to do. bummer.
i feel like sleeping.
- might go to the gym too. i feel them flabs piling up. :(

tomorrow's a holiday.
and i have tuition but only in the evening.
and i have no plans. :/ oh well.
this whole week is gonna be major studying time.
sigh!

xx

3 hours.

xx

the ravens.

"do you remember even when we were apart,
we use to talk every night
and my heart raced with every text and every time
my phone rang, i hoped it would be you."

-oth, season 7 episode 1.

i somehow feel like we use to be brooke and jullian.
filled with lust
but a fair portion of love to balance it.

its strange.

i cant believe how you're number 1

today:
- i wanted to be happy. and so im gonna TRY. just for today.
-slept during moral.
- my mood went haywire today. (as usual)
-i have tuition in 5 minutes. lol
-i am gonna study for my undang tomorrow. i feel like im gonna fail. aha!
-im gonna complete watching oth. :)

xx

wise words from a not so wise person

dont ever procrastinate.
never ever ever.

cause that was my outcome.
and i think god punished me for not studying,
my book got stuck inside my desk.
yes, inside.
i had to literally remove my whole drawer out.
i nearly cried. lol
i thought it was stuck there forever. aha.
but i got it out. :)

and im done studying bio.
turns out undang is on thursday.
lalalala

xx

puncak dunia telah kau tawan.

"I remember every look upon your face,
The way you roll your eyes, the way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everythings okay
And finally now, we're leaving"
-two is better than one, boys like girls&taylor swift.


today:
-my head hurt from doing so many things
-nearly cried over thinking things. (thats a habit i seriously have to stop)
- had so much fun during sejarah class.
we sang jalur gemilang all the way. :)
- i laughed my ass off after school with nasri. what a nice way to end school.
-we bullied mr sai mun as usual.
- i love kitt more than usual for the things she did today. ;)
(no one knows except me,her and ian.)


i might be taking my undang tomorrow. eheh.
which means i get to skip a bio test. whooh!

sigh.
xx

i think i found what i needed.

it still makes my heart skip a beat or two.

i hate you spm.
but it aint stopping me from watching it on the day of the release.
i have it all planned out in my head. :)

xx

ashes and wine.

because


today:
-i lost my mood completely.
-i cried during lunch.
- i realized how rusty i am at chemistry.
-i am tired.

xx

good morning peeps.

yawn..

i slept at 9 last night.
can you believe that?
whooh!
and i just got up. lol

which means, im gonna have to hit my books soon. :(
grrr.


i cannot believe i still havent watched this yet.
im pathetic. despite how much people say its not good.
i still wanna watch it. :(





i dont care. :)
im watching this after trials. :D



edit://
i love it when my table's a complete utter mess.
it shows ive been doing work. aha.

yes, my keyboard's wireless thus you could see how its strangely not infront of the screen. lol
dont you just love it. :)
its so messy.
omg. im such a nerd.

i did:
-maths
-add maths
-sejarah.

im dead.
xx

god, why did i have to be a compulsive shopper? :(

im so broke. but omg.
i want!


rm 45




rm 155.

i remember telling shivani i wanted gladiator heels.
or something that looked like em.
this is close enough.
but why do you have to be so freaking pricy!
:(

how many shoes can a girl own?
asnwer: PLENTY.
i own the most number of shoes in this household.
dayumn. i know.

i hate these online blogs. -.-
they get buyers so hooked on to it.
thats it,
im shopping during raya hols. lol

hopefully.
if you'll excuse me, im gonna go fantasize myself wearing these things now. :)

taa.

you start to wonder why you're here not there.

but,

which is why

.

look! sissy's name is there!! :)
look chea!
(i know you're reading this)

today:
-i went for the undang lecture. which was suppose to start at 8 but only started
around 11.
we were dead bored/tired.
im SOOOO sleep deprived.
- went back to megans hourse before and after the course and ate like a pig.
i hate going over to her house.
there's always so many things to eat there. -.-
- im staying home tonight to get more sleep!

tomorrow:
- i have to start studying sejarah.
i think ive had enough time procrastinating. -.-
grrrrr.

xx

sweet surrender

one day. im gonna do that. and conquer the world. :)
just you wait.

for you:

today:
- i studied in class. whooh!
- we went for a chem seminar after school
which btw, WAS A FUCKING WASTE OF TIME.
and we ended an hour earlier cause she didnt have anything else to say to us.
and our seminar were based on us asking the lecturer questions.
and even if she did teach us things, it was things we already KNEW!
- had tuition and nearly broke down.
(i have this thing, where if i cant do things right or get the right answer, i go mentally
insane)

tomorrow:
-im going for the 6 hour undang course with
benita,leenna,megan,kitt,azizul,ben,joel
:)
and then after that, im spending the day withe megan.
its either we're going back to her place to study,
or we might go out.
depending on what time we finish.
sigh.
it starts at 8 in the MORNING! shoot me. -.- my saturdays are usually very laid back.
meh.

xx

alteration on every thing.

today:
-was really exciting.
why?
i built my family. lol. you should see who it consists of.
- did the soap experiment during chem after almost two weeks of bugging mr sai mun
(turns out its not that really interesting)
- i managed to make someone happy cause mumma did her flowers and
she liked it. :)
- i ate like a pig as usual.
- i saw adrian tan cause he came to school with nic who forgot my cd again. -.-
-i got hit on the head by a football thanks to jian yong. -.-
i hate you.

happy 18th birthday to


keefe lee.
i just realized i dont have a single picture with you asshole. lol
but enjoy being legal.
and thank you oh so much for being there for me during the hardest moments.
:)


kakakku
who has been nothing but nice to me. thank you so much for everything.
i'll be joining you in aus next year so i'll be seeing you soon.
happy 18th love.
miss you back home.

xx