i dont really care how my kidneys or brain works. seriously.

been doing bio today and yesterday
and seriously,
my head's gonna explode.
i hate the waiting, i kinda just wanna sit for the exam and be done with it.
sigh.




why cant all guys be as good looking at him?
and not god knows how many thousand miles away from here?

melbourne,
how bout you?
tell me you've got stock on guys like that.
if you do,
lemme preorder one.

im am thoroughly empty.
dont get me wrong, im not upset or depressed
at least i dont think i am,
but neither do i have anything to be happy about.
im moving around effortlessly as gravity pulls me here and there.

god forbid i have hectic days like today

got back around 11 last night from dinner.
really god food last night.
and i played with a 7 and 5 year old the whole night.

woke up at 11 this morning, and only made it to brush my teeth
till mum called saying i had to be at the shop while
she had to run off for an emergency,
so i changed and went.
yes, i didnt shower.
and im a morning person, meaning i love my showers and all.
and i completely missed it all. -.-

tried studying bio,
but i must say it wasnt easy with all the
"demie, can you help me get the roses and orkids out from the fridge?"
"demie, help me clear the floors"
"demie, print out the messages."
and the constant attending to customers and kids that were coming in and out
of the shop. -.-
and i was sleepy.
so imagine my mood.
i managed to do a fair bit of bio la.
but not as much as i had planned.

now at home, clean and feeling fresh.
but still sleepy. -.-
meh.

i might study at leenna's tomorrow.

xx

GIVE ME JAKE NOW!

today was a really really good day. :D
started off with breakfast with chien teng and then joined by brenda and ian and jia shern
so i hung out with them first.
then the rest of the girls came and we went in.
pics:



this retarded brenda,
didnt wash her hair properly and she said there was soap in her hair. -.-
cause she was rushing. lol
so guess who had to help her wash it off in the toilet?


















there are more pictures from chien teng

omg.
i screamed and squeeled and gasped at almost every scene
and as expected. -.-
i cried before the movie even started. lol.
too excited.


i know,
i was always for edward in the book,
but damn it!
taylor lautner was to die for in this movie.
and he makes jacob sound so nice.
come on, the scene when he's talking to bella in the rain?
gotta love that!


*drools*
im so on cloud nine right now. lol

Christopher Weitz did an amazing job with the graphics and action
and making sure it was sort of sticking to the book.
seriously im happy with the way it turned out.
typical malysia to cut out scenes here and there
so im definitely getting the DVD and soundtrack. :D

went off to paddingtons house of pancakes
with the girls after that
then me, naa, marie and trin went window shopping.
lol. we were so in the mood to find things for the beach. ahaha.
then i came home.


















thanks giving dinner tonight at auntie rozita's.
meaning TURKEY. :D:D

and tomorrow whole day studying.
dont ask me how im gonna concentrate.
cause i have ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA.
ITS STUCK IN MY HEAD.

i want jake.

xx

cause i cant draw humans to save my life.

see there's really funny story to this,
tesha asked me to draw a tiger.
cause i asked for an idea of something else to draw.
and she said tiger..
but i saw it as tigger. :P
she laughed. and she told me what she originally said.
i laughed my ass off.

so having the semangatness
and i was procrastinating from doing add maths last night,
i decided to try it.
i thought it would be challenging. something detailed.
thats how it turned out.

looks slightly retarded i know.

and i did this just only.
cause i was bored.
attempted human faces and i erased it. lol
it looks worse than my animals.
i swear i really cannot draw a face to save my life. lol

bottom line?
i do animals and still life best.

xx

fuck this shit

so,
maths was good.
moral was relatively good,
do ask me how add maths was?

how was add maths you ask?
IT WAS SHIT!
FUCKING SHIT.
PAPER 1 WAS OKAY
BUT PAPER 2?!?!?!
IT WAS LIKE OUR TRIAL STANDARD
AKA ABSOLUTELY HARD!
WTH IS THE KEMENTRIAN THINKING?!

*breathes*

on the brighter side?
new moon tomorrow.
*drools*

xx

we all have rights, but somehow, mine are all used up.

nothing like a bottle and chicken essence
and my 36 moral values
on a monday afternoon.
sigh.

maths was relatively easy..
maybe i should have just stuck to 4 question in section B paper 2 instead of being so
anal and stubborn
by doing all 5.
heh.

moral and add maths and then its
NEW MOON BABY!! :D

cant wait.
xx

birthday post

dont kill me.
i found this somewhere in my documents.
lol.

happy birthday vishalini. (:
yes, only i can call you that right?
ahaha.

i'll see you around smarty pants.

one time.

had a productive day today. (:

woke up,
got my hair trimmed
and its so much shorter now. :(

did maths and add maths till bout 3 something and then
i decided to head to the gym for about 40 minutes?
and then i came home and went online
before i memorized my moral nilai's.
and here i am again. :)

sigh,
week two,
here we come.

xx

its been a while since ive last shown you what ive drawn hasnt it? :)


did this just now.




these two were a while back.
i love my iguana. :)
dont you?

i'll reach there even if it means i go alone.

why does it feel like spm is over?
-.-

monday
maths 1
maths 2

tuesday
moral

wednesday
add maths 1
add maths 2

and im done with the second week.
whooh.

gonna do a module paper now.
toodes.

xx

to the other man in my life,

happy belated birthday adikku. :)
i took that picture which btw is on your msn and blog display picture
so i better get credit for it man!
kudos to you
for not going insane with my nonsense
and sticking through with all my ups and downs.
and for 'praying' for me. lol
i'll join you there next year which means
i get more time with my adik.
:)

miss you loads.
xx

you wont understand unless you have my fb.

jacob jacob jacob jacob jake? :D

SPM

NO MORE SEJARAH AND BM FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE!!!!
WHOOOOOOHHHHHH!
:D:D

bm1
sej1
bm2

eng1
eng2
sej2

est1
est2

thats all there's left till week one is over.


such a relief.
i know i made shitty ass mistakes here and there
but i know i kinda did well.
that's all that matter. :)

on another note, my hand and fingers are cramming.
and ive gotta write another essay tomorrow.
3 days in a row man!
damn!

xx

toodes.

we'll get through it.
i mean 3 weeks of exams, harmless right?
PSHHHT!
-.-

we collected our draft testimonial, peka certs, leaving certificate and
our exam slip.
sigh.
one more day.

saw our chief invigilator just now.
she looks nice. :)
i hope.

did loads of sejarah today which im getting fucking sick of.
but i cant seem to do anything besides sejarah for now.
sigh.

till the next time im online.
xx
(probably next weekend)
ahahaha

cry me out.

come faster spm.
i need you over and done with
cause right now,
im holding my breath.

as of tomorrow,
i would have no social life for a whole month.
great.

xx

changed the header as you all can see.
heh.

burst down in tears right after tuition.

dont ask.

i just havent been happy for a very long
time.

sigh.

i love how humans have that ability to plaster a fake yet realistic smile
on their faces.
its brilliant.

xx

when i leave for the night, i aint coming back

i hate the exan period,
i let it get the worst of me.

im fucking stressed,
i can hardly sleep at night cause im too busy planning
what subjects im suppose to cover tomorrow.
and then i try memorizing things,
and when i cant get it right,
i get up in the middle of the night to study it. AGAIN.
sigh.

im a Q1 in that sense.

i need the first 3 days to be over with.
FAST.

xx

no the party doesnt start till i walk in

so i went to school today. :)
decided to study in the library.
course i wasnt alone, nabihah and iman were there.
and then kitt came.
and i did add math and loads of sejarah. :)

oh oh!
as i was stonning, i came across a students artwork which had peacock feathers.
and i had this brilliant idea
of my next project! :D





its between the two pics,
imma paint it, but instead of painting the feathers,
(cause its gonna be hell trying to do that in detail)
imma stick them on,
but paint the bird itself.
what do you think?! :D

im gile excited.
omg.
spm isnt over let alone started yet and here i am
planning post-spm
projects. -.-
wtf?

sigh.
gonna do more add maths tonight.
so yeah


xx

camhoe.

cause i needed a break from all the books yesterday.

xx

one week.

im only one for a short while to check everything.
gonna head back to studying.
got shit loads to do.
but first,

happy birthday,


karen.

lally. :)

xx