im leaving..on a jet plane. (:

i just came home. from spending the whole day with the sister. (:

lets see, we got up and headed down for coffee first at a place where
the sister likes.
i have to admit, they had the most DELICIOUS coffee ever!
and then she took me to the arts supply store which btw i could have gone really crazy in
but i didnt. (:
i bought these artist markers from faber castle which you dont find back in kl.
nyaha!
and then we walked around more and headed to uni.
where she sat and studied and i read. (:

went for lunch at a malaysian/singaporian restaurant called
norsiah.
and then we went by fiza's place to grab jackets.
cause me and the sister, oh so smartly didnt dress smartly.
"it was sunny! i swear"
"yeah, now its windy! "
sei lor!

and then we went to follow fiza run some errands and then it was off to koko black.
which is literally a chocolate shop.
and we had hot chocolate.
damn nice. (:
and then hung around to talk for a bit and then it was home. (:
where mum's cooking for our last family dinner. wheee.

pics.










tea









take 1&2




'religious' people. ;)


candid






koko black.





the end.
xoxo

its better.

last day here. (:
and im spending it with the sister. at where?
UNI. -.-
lol. she's gotta study so i said nevermind, i'll sit and read.
meh.
she was suppose to take me to an art supply shop anyway.

the weather's looking nice today. (:
sunny.
thank god.

things arent okay.
but they're better.

i thank that man up there.
both.

xoxo

i feel so stupid. -.-

thank god. its the ending of the holidays.
cause i couldnt have found a better time for me to break down.
sigh.
im heading home tomorrow night.
thank god for that.

for this one time, i know i brought it on to myself.
pfft. why la demie. why.
for just this one time too, im letting myself freeze by the ice cold weather.
it makes my fingers and toes go all numb.
it nice not feeling anything.
makes you forget for a while how you're suppose to feel

if only you knew how much i still want you to come to the airport.
i wanna make things right.
i really wanna see you.
but if you're not willing to. its fine.

edit

just came back from dinner with the ex form 5's.
it got my mind off some things.
im glad for that.
its kinda hard not to laugh with them.
i miss them all la. they were such a great group of friends. (:



nariza. (:


luqman


joel


lam. (: some things havent changed. lol






luqman,didi,me, nariza and joel






i cant remember what we were laughing about. and it suddenly came to this pic.
lol.


luqman and i. (:

its my problem. and i shouldnt be dragging you in them.
i have to deal with it on my own.
i just hope you can forgive me.
sigh.

dear god, lets play nice yes?

i got up feeling utterly moody.
and USUALLY i blame my fucking hormonal mood swings.
because my red friend decided to visit.
but now,
i blame my impracticality about certain things.

oh fuck.
-.-

i tend to have this irritating feeling
that either im doing something wrong, or something wrong is gonna happen to me.
and usually,
thats enough to fuck my whole day up.
like last night. and this morning. and god knows how long till i cool down.
meh.

*BREATHES*
i got up anyhow.
you know that idiom? 'getting up on the wrong side of the bed?'
yeah.
kinda like what happened this morning.
everything was so rushy.

went up to melb central to send mum off to her morning breakkie with auntie ariza at
max brenners.
and then me and lawrence walked the shops as i finished doing ALL my shopping.
im pretty pleased.
and for once in my life. lol
IM TIRED OF SHOPPING.
theres nothing that catches my eye. and im pretty proud of myself. :)
spending on all the discounted items. ;D wheee...

heading to nariza's later in the afternoon.
dinner with the ex form 5's is on tonight.
so that'll be fun.
i hope.
sigh.

3 more days till im back in kl.
*chants*
i can do it. sigh.

no really??

even a seven hour flight away from home,
and you can still make me feel like shit.
and now all i feel like doing is breaking down.

great job la.seriously.

just you and me and the ice cold wheather

i just got back from my shopping extravaganza (:
well not really. lol
went to dfo this morning. and for the first time since i cam here,
i got up the latest and slept really early last night.
meh.

yesterday,
i stayed at home most of my time reading. and walked down toorak village
in hopes of finding my prom dress and failed. meh.

today, headed to dfo.
it was a top of 12 degrees today. so effing cold.
walked the shops.
and found my dress. :D:D
all im gonna say is that its simple but elegant, just the way i wanted it to be.
(:

walked back home in the rain.
and now im here. waiting till bout 6 ish till i meet the sister down in melbourne central.
im heading there all on my OWN. :D
i bet you're wondering why?
lol. im heading for her cheer practice. (:

im tired. and i still havent found some stuff for people. sigh.
i cant get everyone something, so im only getting for those im close to.
sorry people. :/

mum's going insane. spending more than i did on my boyfriend. -.-
she's bought him like loads of things. lol.
such a lucky boy he is.

dinner tomorrow night with the ex form 5's
whee

xoxo

you know whats the worst thing i hate right now?

when your red friend decides to check up on you.
-.-

bugger.

get out.

ello there. :)

so much for an early morning, i ended up getting up at like 8 something 9. lol
we headed to camberwell
and for someone who doesnt usually bargain shop, found pretty awesome things.
wanna know what? :D
i got
-an mng sweater that wasnt worn at all and is gorgeous as its got that bead effect.
-cool handmade rings
-got leenna's brown bag. :)
-a bardot top which is usually really expensive that was marked down to $2


a girl cant have too many bags. (:


as pathetic as is sounds, its so far the only picture i have with her. lol


ze family. (:


and after that, it was lunch somewhere else.






props to chea.




oh,
it was mum and lawrence's anniversary. (:

after that, chea had to run off for cheer practice, so me and the parents
wondered around the city,
and i ended up shopping at diva and supre and got more things.
at the same time, i was hunting for my prom dress.
which i did find something
but oh dear mother of mine refused. -.- cause she said it looked funny.
grrr.

we wondered into myers, david jones and what not till dinner at 7.30
at c&b with sarah. (:







walked her back after and it was home.
meh.
im exhausted.
tomorrow's the queen's birthday. so everyone's on holiday.
how fun.

xoxo

i miss my adik.

got up later than usual today considering i slept at 3
waiting for a certain someone to come online who didnt actually come online.
pfft.

got dressed and waited for chea to get ready.
then it was me,mum and chea who headed down to the train station to head
down to melbourne central again.
gah.
and under the clock there i saw someone.
and my face immediately lit up.
i couldnt stop smiling, because i saw...


(:

we sat down at krispy kreme and just talked and talked.
hoemahgawd have things changed so much. :/
its amazing.
for an hour and a half or so, we sat there talking. (:

then he temaned me shopping for gary's things.
and i bought him two shirts.
which i have an identical one for one of the designs.
lol.
"we could wear it both one day and look so cool"
sure love. whatever you say. (:
gorgeous designs, if im not broke after buying everything i need, im getting more. :D
i love it when melbourne's having sale. cause its serious sale.
i bumped into ji-han who wanted to meet up
so whooh.
how lucky.

after walking around more,
we went down to sushi sushi to sit and talk more bout ze old times. (:
and then mum came and we all walked around till he had to leave.
see you weiren. :( till you come home to malaysia.

12 degrees today.
and it was raining just now. which meant it was colder.
you wanna know what im still quite jakun about,
you know when its really cold and you breathe, you see your breath? yeah.
:P
i love doing that for the fun of it. lol

early morning tomorrow as me, chea, amirah and mum are going
secondhand bazaar shopping. :)
wheee...

xoxo

peace and serenity.

wanna know how my day was spent?

got up at 8
waited for the sister to get up and then we got ready and were
out of the hse not much later.

headed to her uni first to grab some books and then we walked around
nearby and we decided to shop a bit.
thought i might hunt for souvenirs for those back home.
but didnt buy anything.
still deciding. bah.

met up with eugene!! ;D
for lunch at grill'd



such a sweetheart.
and i met some of the sister's friends. :)

one of em i met. jia ling.

alot actually. and i think ive walked in and out of her uni so many times,
i dont wanna go back there. :P

all we've been doing is eat. lol
not funny.
im so gonna get fat here.
shopped more in the evening.
:D
and blew 120 bucks including food. thats like what RM340? :P
so far:
i bought two flats,
a wallet,
jeans
tights
and yeah thats bout it. :)
and came home for dinner.

its been a while.

13 degree's outside aint fun.
i freezed my toes last night.
grrr.

oh oh guess who i saw!
luqman!! :D
lol.
on the tram.
quite the cool la. (:

i miss him!
:(

xoxo

PS: pictures up as soon as possible. :)

who said?

"we'll be famous one day. and everyone will know we did it all on the rooftop"

"totally dude"

you know whats the best part of a blackout?
when the sex bomb and your boyfriend and you sit out by the roof top with a guitar.
and moon's shining bright. :)

yeah. i miss times like that

im here

im down. :)

the flight wasnt so bad.
i love aeroplane food for some reason.
watched movies and for the first time ever,
i SLEPT.
i never could.

met the sister and lawrence.

and i just came back from walking out to get food.
omg.
it feels so cool to be back here again. (:

i wanna see nariza and weiren!!!! :D

xoxo
night malaysia

ps: i forgot to mention, me and mum splurged on a coach bag at the airport.
die wei.
im so gonna go broke. :P

im leaving

grr.
aussie's taking me tomorrow. :(
sigh.
i went out with gary.
whee.
and he's currently sleeping in my room.

gah. im having to wake up so early tomorrow.
gone for 8 days.
sigh.
this is so depressing. -.-

xoxo

shut up and let me go

im back from the curve.
with lisa, nabbers, nik and haris.
(:
sakae for lunch. ive been craving it for a while now.
yumm.




its been a while since ive had a girls day out.
sorta

today was the last of the extra classes.
and shaun and alfred called me a maid for some reason.
they said the pinafore i was wearing looked like a cleaning uniform.
god knows how. -.-
but it was fun la.
i love my classmates for being so dysfunctional.
(:

aussie's taking me for 8 days.
starting on thursday. damn.

and i totally forgot i had physics tuition tomorrow.
SHIT.
my plans.oh my plans.

xoxo

im glad its over. (: for now.

i promise you.

after being out at school and granny's and running errands
with the mother,
i finally came home.
completely lost my mood.
(ive got my reasons)
and i cant seem to focus on anything else right now.
sigh.

i got my bangs thinned and it looks so much better, and best part is, i could totally push it
to the side or have bangs. either way it works.
atleast one thing turned out right today.

happy sweet 16 to three people who shares the same birthday,
first of,

buddyku (:
jian yong.


carmen chen


and jasmine chan.

enjoy being 16 while you still can. :)

you have no idea how sorry i am.
and how terrified and hurt i feel.