i think i like you..

you broke my heart.
more than anything.
by saying those words.
and i was falling for you hard.

bummer.
but im still sticking around.
i wonder why

FUCK YOU.
for everything.

you make it hell for me.
and im sick of always showing my weakest side.
but yet, im the one who always takes your feelings into consideration.
i bet you couldnt give a rats ass bout me.
hah.

such a nice person you are.

*change mood*
exhausted from 4 new dances.
but definitely awesome. :)
and stupid shit, they just HAD to put the running man in. lol.
i cant do that for shits! i mean i can la but trust me, it doesnt look that nice compared to the rest.
lol. but the rest were nice. (:
and now im suffering from cramps. lol.

its the weekend.
sigh.
ive got nothing to do but study tomorrow.
and i'll see how rajin i am to drag this fat ass of mine to the gym. :D

exams are coming close. :(
nooo..

xoxo

living the harsh lane

i wanna shop. :(
nice word aint it? hahah!
dangerous when it comes to me. lol.
im dying to hit the shops at telawi street and best part is,
i have the cash! :D
sorta. i mean its not mine but yeah i can use it. wheee.

4 hours non stop of just pure dance.
how nice.
as a workout i mean. (:

xoxo.
ps: bio's stuffing its facts up my ass. -.- i hate studying.
why do we take exams again?

an early birthday wish for:

adam. :)


happy 17th birthday!
your finally legally allowed to drive. ;)
and hopefully the next time i see you (which would be a miracle if i do considering how often we dont see each other)
i'll get to talk to you. (:
and yes. your still not as tall as you said you were to me. lol.
keep dreaming adam.
but i wish you the best. so unfair that your done with school already. haha.
please dont loose touch yeah.
xoxo,
demie

i feel the burn

its chaotic at home, in school. everywhere.

stupid exams.

have you ever felt mixed feelings? like all at once?
call me crazy but im like feeling angry, scared, panicked, anticipated, depressed all
at the same time.
heh :/

didnt go out today.
suprisingly.
mum needed help at the shop. and of course i had to say okay.
studied sejarah . -.-
got canceled by aleena to the gym. so i stayed at home to do more sejarah.
its scaring me now. :S lol.
and then i just had dinner and i figured..
i need a time out. (:
so i came online. heh. after all it'll probably my last time online till after exams. hah!

im tired.
currently waiting for my gossip girl to download. :) teehee

xoxo

NABBERS!!!!!!!!!!!!


only she'll understand. :P

what if?

my weekend was.. productive. (:
in a weird way.

sat:
i spent the whole day with nabbers. :)
we went to the taman tun library to study. stupid girl!
i was hardly able to ask her any questions cause she said she was too busy looking
at how my lips move when i speak. -.-
how retarded is that?!
but i love her. (: we sorta squeeled here and there in the library cause i was always getting
her distracted. hahah. and she'd totally kill me for that. payback bitch! ;)
and then i went to the curve for dinner with mummy dearest.

sun:
got up and read more of 'THE HOST'.

part of my year end resolution. :)
to re read it again for the second time. which i successfully did! ;)
and had to drop by the curve again to do some shopping with mother.
oh oh!
i cut my fringe short. :) and decided to do a trim on my hair.
it keeps getting unhealthy. :(
and then as usual,dinner with granny.

you know whats really funny.
i have this thing right, where i plan things in my head. like my whole routine for the day
and if i dont go by it, i feel so uneasy.
i know its weird.
and i had it planned that after granny's i was gonna come home and blog and then study bio.
BUT THEN GUESS WHAT HAPPENED!?
power failure -.-
so i sad in my room lit only by two small candles mind you.
and sweating AND doing bio.
i lost my mood and trust me that was hell.
and now im online. finally! (:

so yea.
i hate mondays -.-
it wears me out alot.
sigh.
revelation is suppose to be my last book i'll read before finals.


hopefully i can keep my word. wish me luck
.
so much to do in so little time. -.-

xoxo






thats kitty! :) but they call it baby too. haha








i wasnt kidding when i said small candles. :P






reminds me of form 3 literature. (:
about shakespear's poem

prom !

i aint staying back for my class anymore!
-.-
i willingly took my time to watch them for the auditions.
so around 11.30 i had dance practice for prom the musical
which was fun. ;) been a while since i last danced. lol
we danced to welcome to the 60's. the cha cha. :) and no air.

then me and kitt went searching for our damn band.
couldnt get through to them till like 30 minutes later..

kittdem
*kitt's on the phone*
where is he?
ben where are you?
what?!?!?!
*got off*
why?
they finished their auditions!
fucker! im here till 3 for nothing?!

convinced mum to pick me up at 2.30 so i made ben and joel
wait for me. (:
we lepaked at the waiting area cause i loss kitt and ben in the drum room
and then we met everyone there again and i went home. (:

so yeah. had tuition and now im here. (:
kill me.
exams are stressing me out!!!
sigh.

im crazy bout it!!!

damn it.
somethings wrong with me.
i have to stop my obsession!
its not good for me. :(


isnt it gorgeous?! the new nano. (: i like the red. but already have the old nano in pink. :)

I WANT THE MACBOOK!!!!!!!!!
ALWAYS HAVE, ALWAYS WILL. (:


OR THE MACPRO!!!!!

lalalala. :)

pretty please? :D

perfect stranger is such a good twisted movie. (:

i came home and pigged out like crap! haha

i hate thursdays. -.-

my class is playing band tomorrow. :) come support them after school k!

today marked the birth of 3 people. (:

Nariza
who's almost like a sister to me. (:
spent many many fun times with you hun
i wish you the best, i truly do. :)
demie loves you loads aight!
xoxo








auntie ariza
who's like good friends with my mother and i see occasionally every once
in a while. (:
but nevertheless, happy birthday to a cool mother.

keefe
who's been lending me an open ear for the past 2 years or so.
i know i can count on him to literally pour my tears out.
thank you for being such an awesome friend. (:
thus, your birthday wishes over the years might actually be answered cause i feel NICE. :)
lol
happy birthday keefe.
ps: i will find/take an updated picture of us okay. :) as promised.

lesson learnt.

never ******* the smartest girl in class. -.-

"your instincts are always right" said my momma.
which im starting to realize is actually true.

fuck school.

need i say more?
i feel so pissed. actually beyond pissed.
i feel annoyed.
i sense my period coming. -.-

so far for class test 4:
Bm-72 3B
chem- 75 2A
physics- 73 3B
maths-80 2A
add maths - 63 5C

im happy la. im improving on most of the subjects. execpt add maths -.-
its the fucking second time i made the same mistake.
heh.
and i tend to loose marks which carries the most marks for the whole exam.
im retarded. -.-
fucking pissed wei.

and dearest mother is being a pain with the whole back situation.
stupid shit.
im gonna have to find a way to balance out all my activities on friday. :S
pray for me.

im gonna be a nerd from here onwards. :D
finals are coming up.
i would say screw it and not care so much.
but thats not in my roots. :P
so yeah.

moral's calling me.
stupid presentation.
taa.

xoxo

i just finished watching:


retarded right?
but i like some of the songs in here (:
its a typical disney movie la. haiyoh!

but maria im gonna side you for once. :P
i like HSM. ONLY when compared to camp rock. ;)

its a monday tomorrow!!
*GASP*
-.-
i hate my monday's schedule. so tiring!
stupid shit.

nights.
xoxo

i got bored.

i was suppose to go to the gym but i ended up staying at home.
i was suppose to study, but i went out with mum to the curve.
i was suppose to study AGAIN and i did. (: for a while
but then my brain stopped receiving anymore facts about malaysia and europe and all.
so i stopped. (: did some exercises and decided to go online (:
played around with my header.
i hope you guys think its nice. (:

and then i ended up typing on the google search bar: 'meaningful quotes'
and found these..
well the ones i liked.

"What we see depends mainly on what we look for."
-John Lubbock

"Emotions are naught to be tormented, for they can kill a person in more ways than one."
-David Garrison

"Happiness is not a destination. It is a method of life."
-Burton Hills

"Time invested in improving ourselves cuts down on time wasted in disapproving of others."
-unkown

"I postpone death by living, by suffering, by error, by risking, by giving, by losing."
-- Anaias Nin

"If you want the rainbow, you've got to put up with the rain."
-- Dolly Parton

"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent."
-- Eleanor Roosevelt

"Love doesn't make the world go 'round. Love is what makes the ride worthwhile."
-- Franklin P. Jones

check it out,
arent they cool pictures? (:


a strawberry tongue


and a rainbow iris. :)

i'd stand up. (:

i just finished watching that show on starworld,
like bout standing up to cancer. (:

so sweet la.
i teared abit here and there at like the real life scenarios people are going through.
i would so call and see who i end up talking to on the line with
but stupid malaysia right, has to be somewhere in asia. :P
everytime there's these tv donation things..
we cant participate in. -.- so so sad wei.
but i still love MALAYSIA truly i do. (: lol.

i literally pigged out the whole day. sorta la. ;)
got up at 4.30 for some reason. (dont wanna say)
and knowing me, it was hardly possible to go back to sleep. but i tried. ended up getting up at 9 latest! shit wei.
and then i bummed at home till lunch time where i actually studied sejarah! :D
AWESOME right? i bet i'd forget everything by tomorrow.
my teacher is seriously insane. :P
100 objective questions in one hour based on 3 chapters. stupid shit.
slept in the evening to regain back my sleep. lol.
and had dinner which i was hoping we were going out but oh well. -.-

im bored. (:
thus im gonna stop here or else i'll be writing nonsense. :P
xoxo

i got tagged by:

1.The last person to tag you is?

lisa

2.What relationship of you with him/her?
best friends. (:

3.Your 5 impression towards him/her?
cool,lame,awesome,fun,gorgeous

4.The most memorable thing that he/she has done to you.
helped me through the rough times. (:

5.The most memorable words that he/she has say to you.
"that she'll always be here no matter what. " and im counting on that.

6.If he/she becomes your lover, you will...
love her? but that'll be so funny. lol

7.If he/she becomes your enemy, you will...
work things out la. but if she were my enemy, i guess i'd do what people to with their enemies?
i dont know. :P she's not an enemy to me so i wouldnt know. lol

8.If he/she becomes your lover, he/she has to improve on..
nothing. loving me? i dont know.

9.If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is ...
enough with the enemy questions la yoh!

10.The most desirable things to do for him/her is?
make her smile. annoy her less. (:

11.The overall impression to he/her is..
awesome

12.How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
hopefully good i guess?

13.The character for you for yourself is?
adorably fun?

14.On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
My annoyingness

15.The most ideal person you want to be is?
someone like reese witherspoon. (:

16.For the person who cares and likes you, say something about them.
im here for you too.
and i adore you just as much! (:

17.Ten people to tag:
1)nabbers
2)leenna
3)maria
4)Shanni.
5)sonia
6)Marie
7)Kittmun.
8)Megan
9)Meiyi.
10)putrina

18.Who is number 2 having relationship with?
no one i think.

19.Is number 3 a female or male?
Female.

20.If number 7 and 10 be together would it be a good thing?
That'd be nice to see.

21.How about number 5 and 8?
highly unlikely

22.What is number 1 studying about?
Studying whatever i have to study. :P

23.When was the last time you had a chat with them?
today in school. and some by sms

24.Is number 4 a single?
Yes.

25.Say something about number 2.
leenna's got nice boobs. ;) and a butt.


agree no? ;)

so what?

i was bored one day..
so i drew this. (:


cute right? (:

31st october. ;)

stupid asshole exams.
-.-
cant wait till they're all over.
class test 4
finals.

and omg la. cant the atmosphere at home be a little happier? -.-
everything seems to be about HIM.

one more month or less till halloween. ;)