you start to wonder why you're here not there.

but,

which is why

.

look! sissy's name is there!! :)
look chea!
(i know you're reading this)

today:
-i went for the undang lecture. which was suppose to start at 8 but only started
around 11.
we were dead bored/tired.
im SOOOO sleep deprived.
- went back to megans hourse before and after the course and ate like a pig.
i hate going over to her house.
there's always so many things to eat there. -.-
- im staying home tonight to get more sleep!

tomorrow:
- i have to start studying sejarah.
i think ive had enough time procrastinating. -.-
grrrrr.

xx

sweet surrender

one day. im gonna do that. and conquer the world. :)
just you wait.

for you:

today:
- i studied in class. whooh!
- we went for a chem seminar after school
which btw, WAS A FUCKING WASTE OF TIME.
and we ended an hour earlier cause she didnt have anything else to say to us.
and our seminar were based on us asking the lecturer questions.
and even if she did teach us things, it was things we already KNEW!
- had tuition and nearly broke down.
(i have this thing, where if i cant do things right or get the right answer, i go mentally
insane)

tomorrow:
-im going for the 6 hour undang course with
benita,leenna,megan,kitt,azizul,ben,joel
:)
and then after that, im spending the day withe megan.
its either we're going back to her place to study,
or we might go out.
depending on what time we finish.
sigh.
it starts at 8 in the MORNING! shoot me. -.- my saturdays are usually very laid back.
meh.

xx

alteration on every thing.

today:
-was really exciting.
why?
i built my family. lol. you should see who it consists of.
- did the soap experiment during chem after almost two weeks of bugging mr sai mun
(turns out its not that really interesting)
- i managed to make someone happy cause mumma did her flowers and
she liked it. :)
- i ate like a pig as usual.
- i saw adrian tan cause he came to school with nic who forgot my cd again. -.-
-i got hit on the head by a football thanks to jian yong. -.-
i hate you.

happy 18th birthday to


keefe lee.
i just realized i dont have a single picture with you asshole. lol
but enjoy being legal.
and thank you oh so much for being there for me during the hardest moments.
:)


kakakku
who has been nothing but nice to me. thank you so much for everything.
i'll be joining you in aus next year so i'll be seeing you soon.
happy 18th love.
miss you back home.

xx

3 feet beneath the ground and i need help getting out.

but when you dont,
sometimes i think to myself what did i get myself into.
and concluded that

today:
- we got back all our results.
and mine doesnt look so bad yet they look like shit.
(get what i mean?)
- i actually studied in class.
- i am going to have tuition soon till 8 later.
- was an extremely boring day.

9.09.09
i would usually wish for something on days like this
cause i use to believe that you could wish for anything as it only happens once a year.
and today,
i have nothing to wish for.
or so i'd like to think.

edit://
i think i have the best physics tuition teacher. :)
she's so sweet. and i know i drive her insane
but atleast i still score my a's for her.
and she was gonna give me a gift before trials. and ended up forgetting bout it.
and so she gave it to me today. :)
its a sheaffer pen engraved with my name on it. :)
wheee.

she's motivated me on getting my A for physics. whooh!
i want my straight A for physics this whole year.
and if i get it, i'll have none other than MS TAN to thank. ;)

xoxo

in and out of a one way ride.

you drive me insane.
with your confused mixed signals. seriously.
i thought you said "you will always love me" thats what you wrote
in your sms on the day you called it quits.
and when i ask you now,
you say you feel NOTHING for me. its either you're a cold heartless bitch
or you just have way too much ego thats sucking up your head.

today:
-we made a slimy gluey ball during chem
-played with gucci today!!! :D
-got my sejarah marks. -.- i got 65%. mother ass.
-i ate honey stars.
-i nearly slept during the sejarah seminar.
but i didnt.
-nic had a dream i was married to him and killed him (during the seminar)
i swear right, whats it with people and me
and their dreams.
its either, they're yelling me or killing me in their dream.
stupid shit.

chem:


and now im gonna work that stupid adobe thing.
taa.
xx

lost and confused.

do you ever wonder why people
go through the stress and drama
even when you know that you might not be able to take the pressure?
that it could really affect you physically and emotionally?

but yet, we all go through the hoops of fire
and up and down and in circles on the roller coaster rides.
why?
why would you go through all that hassle?

sometimes you wonder
is it to prove a point?
is it to understand something better?
is it just because you want abit more liveliness in your life?
WHAT?

if you know its just gonna drive you crazy and make you wanna
pull every last strand of hair on your head
and make you wanna rip out your heart and hammer it a few times,
why do we still go through with it?

dont you ever wonder?
i do. :/

yawn

considering i slept at 3 last night
and had to get up at 9 this morning,
im freaking sleepy. -.-

followed mum to ou and got there around 10.

i:
-walked around with her to wait for the rest of ze gang to come.
-bought a dress from zara (i know. i shouldnt have)
-ate like a pig for lunch
-met up with nabihah who was also there with aaron.
-enjoyed walking around with them ladies. ;)

how often do you go with your mum and her friends to give their friend a total
makeover eh.
quite the interesting la.

and now, im
going to take a nap.
and then MAYBE do a sejarah module paper.
omg.
i dont know how people can be so rajin. -.-


you cant really see the design,
but you get the idea.
its a very very nice lbd. :)

xx

ive got that new im-a-single-girl swag

i fucking give up working with adobe softwares. -.-
where's my photoshop?
how come there were such canggih things called indesign which is a useless piece of
shit. -.-
ive spent nearly 2 hours trying to work the bloody thing.
mother ass.

mummy and ze gang is taking aunty jessy for a wardrobe
makeover.
and i figured, why not and tag along. :)
fashion consultant. whoohoo!

yes, which means i should be getting my sleep now considering they're
meeting up pretty early tomorrow.
meh!

xx

edit

i just got back from ou.
yes its late. lol.

with these two idiots:









it was fun la,
we ended up eating at new york new york,
walked around here and there going to all sorts of it computer shops
hearing them talk about their stupid games. -.-
and looking at all sorts of gaming pads. pfft.

then we decided to settle down at coffee bean
to chit chat and drink.

and then they sent me home.:)

the conversations that we have every time we go out
never fails to take my mind off things.
i miss that feeling.

xx

its a need to know basis sweetheart.

so you see right,
i was in the mids of downloading softwares and everything
last night until...
POOF.
my computer shuts down.
turns out the wires and the fuse had something wrong. and half the electrical
appliances and lights in the house was out.

but thank goodness for the tv
i had something to do while waiting for the freaking tnb.
ended up watching shutter (i still think the thai version is scarier)
and god knows what.
considering the comp wasnt gonna come back on any sooner i fell asleep around 2.

woke up to my fan off and my air cond blasting at 4 am.
and i saw my computer switches on.
so i kinda figured they came back to fix it.

and now im here. :)
azreen couldnt make it. heh
so im meeting with her another day. means ive got the whole afternoon free again
till evening
and then its grandma's and ou with adrian and nic. whee.

xx

3 weeks.

im completely bored at home.
attempted to do add maths and failed. i'll go back and do maths later.
i wanna go for tea or dinner with someone. :(
grrr.

so here i am scoundering all the nice songs from oth.

edit://
its now 6.30 and the only time i ate was breakfast.
i havent had anything since.
thats why i hate the weekends and when im home.
im so glued to the comp i dont bother doing anything else.
even eating.
heh

"i can't be superman
and save you, save you
you're falling way too fast to save

i swear, i swear
you'll let me down
but every second you're around
you pick me right up off the ground."
-superman (save you), friday night boys

the perfect bitch face

today:
-we took our class pictures AGAIN.
and it turned out awesome. lol
-we ended up camwhoring alot AFTER the photoshoot.
- zul didnt bring gucci. :( so i didnt get to play with her.

i wish:
-you wouldnt be such a bitch. (so much for not ignoring me)
-i could get more sleep.
-i could hear from you.
sigh










































just because i can.

xoxo

because i couldnt have asked for anyone better

because i think i would really cry when we all go our own ways

molefrie!

today:
-we took our class pictures which im yet to get from danish.
- goofed around the whole time.
-i played with a snake after school.
- i actually did work in class. lol.
-me and nasri came up with the coolest word ever, and no one will know what it means. ;)


and we're taking our class shot tomorrow again.:)
dont ask why.
we're just fussy people. lol

xoxo

you shook it upside down

edit://

today at school:
- we had a debate on the proper way of pronouncing the word : throbbing
(mind you, it was us versus ben. )
- we bitched bout loads of people. lol
-i fought and yelled with ben after lunch (which i feel sorry for. but you really
piss me off sometimes)
-had a comfort talk with johann, jia shern and naddy.
-laughed my ass off after school and during chemistry. (mr sai mun's the best ;) )
-i scored a 51 for moral. (highest was 63)
the subject is useless i tell you. -.-

yeah.
thats how good school was today.

off to do my essay and other things.
ive now taken the roll of not only secretary but treasurer of the prom committee.
great. -.-

xoxo

english

ms anjali has decided to give me
the task of writing an english essay for the school magazine.
omg. -.-

im here half asleep trying to write my essay.
but i thank god ive got such a lovely sister who's gonna help me with it. :D

school wasnt so bad.
we had 6 free periods of absolutely nothing.
adriantandemie
i have 6 free periods today.
you know, when i first read it i thought you meant you had your period.
i was thinking that was shit loads of blood!
omg! you're disgusting. :p
how am i suppose to know. you women.
pfft.

yeah i wasnt the good girl today.;)
i texted the whole time in class. even in front of mr sai mun. lol
i kinda liked it.
it was a very carefree day. :)

mmhm.
xoxo