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just came back from dinner with the ex form 5's.
it got my mind off some things.
im glad for that.
its kinda hard not to laugh with them.
i miss them all la. they were such a great group of friends. (:



nariza. (:


luqman


joel


lam. (: some things havent changed. lol






luqman,didi,me, nariza and joel






i cant remember what we were laughing about. and it suddenly came to this pic.
lol.


luqman and i. (:

its my problem. and i shouldnt be dragging you in them.
i have to deal with it on my own.
i just hope you can forgive me.
sigh.

dear god, lets play nice yes?

i got up feeling utterly moody.
and USUALLY i blame my fucking hormonal mood swings.
because my red friend decided to visit.
but now,
i blame my impracticality about certain things.

oh fuck.
-.-

i tend to have this irritating feeling
that either im doing something wrong, or something wrong is gonna happen to me.
and usually,
thats enough to fuck my whole day up.
like last night. and this morning. and god knows how long till i cool down.
meh.

*BREATHES*
i got up anyhow.
you know that idiom? 'getting up on the wrong side of the bed?'
yeah.
kinda like what happened this morning.
everything was so rushy.

went up to melb central to send mum off to her morning breakkie with auntie ariza at
max brenners.
and then me and lawrence walked the shops as i finished doing ALL my shopping.
im pretty pleased.
and for once in my life. lol
IM TIRED OF SHOPPING.
theres nothing that catches my eye. and im pretty proud of myself. :)
spending on all the discounted items. ;D wheee...

heading to nariza's later in the afternoon.
dinner with the ex form 5's is on tonight.
so that'll be fun.
i hope.
sigh.

3 more days till im back in kl.
*chants*
i can do it. sigh.

no really??

even a seven hour flight away from home,
and you can still make me feel like shit.
and now all i feel like doing is breaking down.

great job la.seriously.

just you and me and the ice cold wheather

i just got back from my shopping extravaganza (:
well not really. lol
went to dfo this morning. and for the first time since i cam here,
i got up the latest and slept really early last night.
meh.

yesterday,
i stayed at home most of my time reading. and walked down toorak village
in hopes of finding my prom dress and failed. meh.

today, headed to dfo.
it was a top of 12 degrees today. so effing cold.
walked the shops.
and found my dress. :D:D
all im gonna say is that its simple but elegant, just the way i wanted it to be.
(:

walked back home in the rain.
and now im here. waiting till bout 6 ish till i meet the sister down in melbourne central.
im heading there all on my OWN. :D
i bet you're wondering why?
lol. im heading for her cheer practice. (:

im tired. and i still havent found some stuff for people. sigh.
i cant get everyone something, so im only getting for those im close to.
sorry people. :/

mum's going insane. spending more than i did on my boyfriend. -.-
she's bought him like loads of things. lol.
such a lucky boy he is.

dinner tomorrow night with the ex form 5's
whee

xoxo

you know whats the worst thing i hate right now?

when your red friend decides to check up on you.
-.-

bugger.

get out.

ello there. :)

so much for an early morning, i ended up getting up at like 8 something 9. lol
we headed to camberwell
and for someone who doesnt usually bargain shop, found pretty awesome things.
wanna know what? :D
i got
-an mng sweater that wasnt worn at all and is gorgeous as its got that bead effect.
-cool handmade rings
-got leenna's brown bag. :)
-a bardot top which is usually really expensive that was marked down to $2


a girl cant have too many bags. (:


as pathetic as is sounds, its so far the only picture i have with her. lol


ze family. (:


and after that, it was lunch somewhere else.






props to chea.




oh,
it was mum and lawrence's anniversary. (:

after that, chea had to run off for cheer practice, so me and the parents
wondered around the city,
and i ended up shopping at diva and supre and got more things.
at the same time, i was hunting for my prom dress.
which i did find something
but oh dear mother of mine refused. -.- cause she said it looked funny.
grrr.

we wondered into myers, david jones and what not till dinner at 7.30
at c&b with sarah. (:







walked her back after and it was home.
meh.
im exhausted.
tomorrow's the queen's birthday. so everyone's on holiday.
how fun.

xoxo

i miss my adik.

got up later than usual today considering i slept at 3
waiting for a certain someone to come online who didnt actually come online.
pfft.

got dressed and waited for chea to get ready.
then it was me,mum and chea who headed down to the train station to head
down to melbourne central again.
gah.
and under the clock there i saw someone.
and my face immediately lit up.
i couldnt stop smiling, because i saw...


(:

we sat down at krispy kreme and just talked and talked.
hoemahgawd have things changed so much. :/
its amazing.
for an hour and a half or so, we sat there talking. (:

then he temaned me shopping for gary's things.
and i bought him two shirts.
which i have an identical one for one of the designs.
lol.
"we could wear it both one day and look so cool"
sure love. whatever you say. (:
gorgeous designs, if im not broke after buying everything i need, im getting more. :D
i love it when melbourne's having sale. cause its serious sale.
i bumped into ji-han who wanted to meet up
so whooh.
how lucky.

after walking around more,
we went down to sushi sushi to sit and talk more bout ze old times. (:
and then mum came and we all walked around till he had to leave.
see you weiren. :( till you come home to malaysia.

12 degrees today.
and it was raining just now. which meant it was colder.
you wanna know what im still quite jakun about,
you know when its really cold and you breathe, you see your breath? yeah.
:P
i love doing that for the fun of it. lol

early morning tomorrow as me, chea, amirah and mum are going
secondhand bazaar shopping. :)
wheee...

xoxo

peace and serenity.

wanna know how my day was spent?

got up at 8
waited for the sister to get up and then we got ready and were
out of the hse not much later.

headed to her uni first to grab some books and then we walked around
nearby and we decided to shop a bit.
thought i might hunt for souvenirs for those back home.
but didnt buy anything.
still deciding. bah.

met up with eugene!! ;D
for lunch at grill'd



such a sweetheart.
and i met some of the sister's friends. :)

one of em i met. jia ling.

alot actually. and i think ive walked in and out of her uni so many times,
i dont wanna go back there. :P

all we've been doing is eat. lol
not funny.
im so gonna get fat here.
shopped more in the evening.
:D
and blew 120 bucks including food. thats like what RM340? :P
so far:
i bought two flats,
a wallet,
jeans
tights
and yeah thats bout it. :)
and came home for dinner.

its been a while.

13 degree's outside aint fun.
i freezed my toes last night.
grrr.

oh oh guess who i saw!
luqman!! :D
lol.
on the tram.
quite the cool la. (:

i miss him!
:(

xoxo

PS: pictures up as soon as possible. :)

who said?

"we'll be famous one day. and everyone will know we did it all on the rooftop"

"totally dude"

you know whats the best part of a blackout?
when the sex bomb and your boyfriend and you sit out by the roof top with a guitar.
and moon's shining bright. :)

yeah. i miss times like that

im here

im down. :)

the flight wasnt so bad.
i love aeroplane food for some reason.
watched movies and for the first time ever,
i SLEPT.
i never could.

met the sister and lawrence.

and i just came back from walking out to get food.
omg.
it feels so cool to be back here again. (:

i wanna see nariza and weiren!!!! :D

xoxo
night malaysia

ps: i forgot to mention, me and mum splurged on a coach bag at the airport.
die wei.
im so gonna go broke. :P

im leaving

grr.
aussie's taking me tomorrow. :(
sigh.
i went out with gary.
whee.
and he's currently sleeping in my room.

gah. im having to wake up so early tomorrow.
gone for 8 days.
sigh.
this is so depressing. -.-

xoxo

shut up and let me go

im back from the curve.
with lisa, nabbers, nik and haris.
(:
sakae for lunch. ive been craving it for a while now.
yumm.




its been a while since ive had a girls day out.
sorta

today was the last of the extra classes.
and shaun and alfred called me a maid for some reason.
they said the pinafore i was wearing looked like a cleaning uniform.
god knows how. -.-
but it was fun la.
i love my classmates for being so dysfunctional.
(:

aussie's taking me for 8 days.
starting on thursday. damn.

and i totally forgot i had physics tuition tomorrow.
SHIT.
my plans.oh my plans.

xoxo

im glad its over. (: for now.

i promise you.

after being out at school and granny's and running errands
with the mother,
i finally came home.
completely lost my mood.
(ive got my reasons)
and i cant seem to focus on anything else right now.
sigh.

i got my bangs thinned and it looks so much better, and best part is, i could totally push it
to the side or have bangs. either way it works.
atleast one thing turned out right today.

happy sweet 16 to three people who shares the same birthday,
first of,

buddyku (:
jian yong.


carmen chen


and jasmine chan.

enjoy being 16 while you still can. :)

you have no idea how sorry i am.
and how terrified and hurt i feel.

hi

im up at 8 to do what?
got knows what.

actually i woke up by myself.
this is insane.
my body cant sleep any later than 9 for some reason.

i got so bored yesterday that i napped twice, painted my fingernails the same way
i painted my toes.
which is black for my left side and magenta for my right.
quite the cool.

dinner at bora was nice last night.
though service sucked.
came back home and decided to just sleep cause there wasnt anything better to do.

mum said we're probably going out to ikea or was it curve
to take aunty lina around.
she fies off today.
meh.
and that boy's coming over so whee.

imma go shower.
i smeelll. :D

xoxo

ITS FINISHED!!!! :D

*breathes*

my exams are finally over. :)
chem resit wasnt so bad.
easier than what i would have expected. made some stupid mistakes here and there
but i guess overall everything went okay.
now its just the getting the results back. meh.

so after that yesterday,
i went back to gary's place to get cleaned up and all
and then greg sent us to ou.
lunch at delicious
(he paid (: )




guess who we saw there too. :)
nabbers is behind there somewhere. lol



and walked around till our movie started.
watched terminator salvation. :)
then it was walking around more to look for a turtle neck cause i realised
i have NO winter clothing at all.
and i found a pretty grey one at zara.
cheap too. :)

then it was back to my place for duck spaghetti which mum made
and gossip girl throughout the night.
and then he went home at about 11.30 ish.
didnt sleep till bout 12.30.

and mum decided to wake me up at 7,
to head to raju's for breakkie.
and then we went on a tour to show auntie lina around the area.
then it was home.

and after napping for an hour or so, and realised everyone in the house is gone.
im pretty much bored.
not heading anywhere till tonight.
dinner at bora asmara with lawrence's side of the family.
till then, its more gossip girl, packing for aus, repainting my nails and what not.
its gonna be a long afternoon.
sigh.

oh oh,
my hair's short.
and i had bangs. till i didnt like it cause the lady did something different with it.
so im growing it again and doing it at cut above when its longer.
so i pushed to to my original right parting.
and now it just looks like i took a pair of scissors and decided to chop it off myself.
lol

hair,grow faster please. :)

xoxo

your ashes ive spent days looking at seems to be staring right back at me.

one tree hill will remain my ALL TIME FAVOURITE series no matter what.
and it for some reason, always makes me
cry every episode. :)


chem left. and then im done. whee.
and its ou after school to spend the whole afternoon with you know who. ;)

xoxo

i still want em. :(

a girl can never have too many shoes. :)

i want
1. glady's. nice looking one
whether heels or flats.

and new clothes.

im going to aussie bitches! :)

smelling the sweet smell of freedom

mid years has been a bitch.
seriously.

but thank god its coming to an end very soon.
i just have paper 1 of est and chem section b and c left.
sigh.

bio wasnt as bad as i thought it would have been.
but i doubt i did very well.
everything else was like an okay ish thing.
maths today wasnt so bad.
but i reaised the easiest thing pun i still dont know how to do. -.-
its frustrating.
and i wrote something which totally doesnt make sense at all.

i have to stop panicking man.
seriously. -.-

sigh.
xoxo

my treasure. :)

200 bucks.
damn. :)

all worth it.

heartless

a friday and i didnt go to school. wow.
:)

considering i dont take accounts,
i got to sleep in an extra 4 hours. wheee.

woke up around 10 and got cleaned up to start on maths.
walked to the club and realised i forgot my scientific calculator.
how smart right? i know.

scribbled on my paper and walked back home with mum
who came back from her surgery.
and i lazed around and napped till tuition.

i felt bad. :p
so me being the Q1 did form 4 bio while eating chips moore.
quite funny. people use to tease me that when i was little.
you know, cause of the demi moore..chips moore? yeah you dont get it. nevermind. -.-
and i bought a chocolate chip cookie from ocho. one those huge ones.
damn.
im so gonna get fat. :p


and i realised i left my calculator and my maths workbook at school. -.-
stupid me.
and mum cant drive out cause she's not suppose to.
so oh well.

currently relaxing as im starting my hardcore studying tomorrow.
so im taking advantage. :)
going off soon.

xoxo

one month?

damn.
that was fast.



next thing you know it'll be 2. and 3. and 4....

because you'd call me even though your bill is high.
because you cant bare to see me upset.
because you'll stop watching gossip girl to watch it with me.
because as much as you complain on how far my house is, you always come.
because you couldnt care how short i am. hah.
because you keep having suprises for me.
because i got you hooked to one of the best songs in my library.
just because.
:)

american idol

kris allen won! wheee. :D

so my hot shots didnt win.
but i was rooting for either one. :) so im pleased. wheee.
this just made my day. :)

you suck.

screw my oath.
for the one day i get to relax,
i decided i was gonna go online. :)
and it feels so damn good.

MID YEARS was shit ass hard.
god knows why the school has to set the freaking papers so unbelievably hard.
-.-

lets recap shall we?

monday
-bm 1
which wasnt so bad. i wrote alot of crap just to get 800 plus words and
that still isnt enough for mr mohan. sigh.
- bm 2
im pretty sure my komsas bit was all nonsense, lol. but i knew some la. so that
wasnt so bad. then came tatabahasa where
i gave it my best. :)
-sejarah 1
was rather easy for me. though i know ive got minor mistakes here and there.

tuesday
-english 1
easiest paper so far
-english 2
nothing different than paper 1
-sejarah 2
DIE DIE DIE. -.-
i knew 3/4 of the entire paper.
so you can imagine, the other 1/4 was whatever nonsense
i could remember from the book. :)
what was even frustrating, was that i had my points right. but i wrote the wrong people.
sigh.
mr sathia, do mark us very linionly.

wednesday
-add maths 1
i didnt leave anything out! ;D im so proud of that.
but then comes the big fat crosses that tell me i just lost like what more than 15 marks already?
lol.
-add maths 2
i completely decided and told myself that i can utterly screw this exam
and i wont hold any guilt. :)
i'll try for trials.
i'll be happy with a pass for add maths. :D
-chem 3
dont even get me started with this paper. -.-
first half all gone.

thursday
-chem 1
wasnt so bad. so far ive got bout 10 mistakes. but im sure there'll be more
-chem 2
structure wasnt so bad. i simply did my calculations and equations.
which i can already tell at the tip of my finger that im gonna get it
wrong. :)
essays, i could have scored. until drama happen.
i shall ellaborate later.
-moral
wasnt so bad. :) is actually second easiest next to english. :)

see, its very Q1 of me
to pin point all my mistakes troughout the examinations.
probably the only thing that keeps me going on to being a bigger Q1.
sigh.

lets talk chem,
we form 5 students have to resit for the section b/c of paper 2 on the LAST FREAKING
day of the mid year examinations,
due to two teachers fault.
basically,
3 classes got different papers compared to the other 2 classes.
so yeah.
you can possibly imagine the frustration us form 5's probably feel right now
so while you all are out partying (cause we actually finish earlier)
the pure science students have to wait to resit 1 hour of their chemistry exam.
how shitty right?
thank you. :)

on another note, i have no exams tomorrow. :)
which means
the whole weekend to myself.
to study.
sigh.

maths, bio, physics and est left. oh wait! chem -.-

there's only 1 thing 2 say 3 words 4 you,

im so dead.
-.-

for mid year exam.

my head's been pounding. im not even done with my sejarah.
and i havent touched bm yet.
chem is making me panic.
gah!
bio's driving me up the walls.
sigh.

rewind/ fast forward
mothers day.

took mum to delicious and we had a banoffee pie. :)
and walked around in bv2.
bought my first pair of zara heels. :)
whee.
there goes 200 bucks.

the whole week,
has been filled with studying and sleeping and what not.

tomorrow,
im leaving after bio to come back to study or i might join the rest
of em at starbucks in kota damansara to study. (:
we'll see.
and its add maths tuition in the afternoon.
die wei!
i couldnt even do last year's add maths paper.
-.-

its my last post till exams are over.
:(

xoxo
signing out till the 27th of may. :)

a stress free weekend

and it feels so good. :)

studied physics and finished some of my homework.
and then it was sejarah.
till gary came.
and he slept. lol. while i did more sejarah.
then we hit the club along with my other boyfriend. ;)
yes. jian yong.
and we hung around there for a while.
they were playing ping pong you see. ;)
and i being the nerd continued studying.

home it was around 5 ish.
and i did mums card.
and then we watched a walk to remember till 7 and mum decided to take us out
to dinner to finish up her vouchers from sushi king. :)
walked around a bit.
and then it was home.

but before that, guess what.
mum lost her parking ticket.
so she made me and gary search for it at the auto parking machine thing.
:P
quite the funny la.
and then it was home.
and more a walk to remember. :)



















and the night ended like that.


and this morning, its sejarah chem and add maths that will accompany me.
and i wanted to take mum out for lunch
but she's thinking after dinner for dessert.
so whichever. it her day anyway. :)
and then im gonna see GRANNY. :D

xoxo

two things

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY





dearest mother,
words cannot explain how much you mean to me.
yes we have our arguments and disagreements
but without that,
i doubt we would have been this close.
the big ass card i gave you already explained why your important so im not gonna
rewrite it all here.
but thank you for being the best you can as a mother.
you cant be perfect and im fine with that.
i love it how you 'lost' your parking ticket last night and made me go back to search for it.
i love it when you suddenly spring me up in the morning to go
out with you even when ive got no mood.
i love it when you allow me all the freedom to do anything as i please.
and many more.
so,
thank you. :)
xoxo

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AZREEN NELLIE

happy bithday kakak.
i miss those times we shared.
sad you're not in the neighbourhood anymore.
i miss hanging out with you. :(
till we meet again.
xoxo :)

fire burning

guess what?! :D
i stayed up
last night till about 12 doing history. -.-
from 9-12.
unbelievable? hah

overload on studying wei.
i just finished tuition physics homework
and im gonna start on sejarah soon.

he's coming over again.
so whee.

xoxo

if there's anything higher than being a Q1, lemme know.

school today wasnt so bad.

everything was productive all till PE which was the last period.
so im pleased.

prelims for paramount band was after school.
and so i stayed back till 3
to support a few of them performing. :)

and after school,
i told mum i needed to go to jasema.
which i didnt.
instead i headed to ou
to pick out some stuff for mum.
but obviously i couldnt tell her i was going to ou to get her present right? -.-

so i wandered around there till like 4 plus?
and headed home.
and omg.
i thought she went out. -.-
but she was at home.
can you imagine how i had to try walking in the house which the huge
big ass card.
-.-
quite the funny.
but thank god she didnt see anything la.

tuition was at 5.30.
and i nearly went insane trying to figure out how to start some of the questions.
stress gile wei.

finished bout 40 minutes ago.
and now im relaxing before i hit them history books. -.-
booo you sejarah.
im missing eryse's dinner because of you. sigh

xoxo

shoot me.

im exhausted.
literally,
everything ive been doing this whole week, has
revolved around
school.
studies.
prom.
tuition.

how depressing. -.-

happy belated birthday

to?

eryse

for you are one of those people i know
i can be perfectly normal (and i mean crazy) with
without having to worry. :)
thank you for everything. and suprising me. lol.
you my bazaar partner yo. :)

and
iman adelina
:)

im dearly sorry i dont have a picture with you
imonster. :(
but i will!
so hang in there.
i acknowledged your birthday! see how nice i am!
the only girl i know who eats her food packed from home (which is meant for break)
before school even starts. and and CUCUMBER! :D lol

xoxo

you can call it whatever you like. :)

im back! :D
from the sleepover i had with lisa dearest.

so saturday morning, the driver dropped me off at school and i hung around with
them cheerleaders for a while.
then it was off to lisa's hse and we had lunch with her grandparents.
yeah. i met her extended family. :)
her cousin,
is soooooo cute! :D

from there, we headed to


got some pretty awesome deals.
and then lisa decided to hit down telawi street. so i accompanied.
and then it was home. :)
we watched bride wars and after a while, i decided to do history.

then dinner at sake. :)
yummers.
and then it was home, more tv and lights were out by 12.

woke up this morning at 9
due to that boy's call.
and then i watched yours, mine and ours for fun while waiting for the other one
to get up.
and then we headed to RAJU'S! :D
i missed it. so so good.

and then home by 12.30 and we studied till bout 2.30?
and then we watched fast and furious 4 with wendy's
by our side. ;)
and then mum came to pick me up and the usual dinner at 5.30 with granny. :)

he's coming over later. which means, i should do some more studying.
so yeah.
im off.
xoxo

wanna know what i miss?

yeah.

my hero

wanna know how my day went? :)

i got up at 9 to gary's phone call.
then i decided to get cleaned up and start on bio.
which i did at the club till about 12?
i caught up on all the stuff i missed out on. and now i understand chapter 3. :)

wanna know a really cool cool word? :D

adrenocorticotrophic. :D
its a hormone btw.
try saying it real fast 5 times. lol

then i went home and went back to the club to swim.
considering i havent done that for while.
i got sprayed by water guns by little kids. -.-
stupid birthday parties.

but it was extremely hot. so i didnt care. the water felt so good. :)
kun and nick stopped by.

and then i went home showered and add maths tuition till bout 7.30.
and mum brought back burger king. ;)

and now im here.
im gonna do bio in a while. sigh.

oh oh!
saturday and sunday with my bestfriend yo! :)
its been a while eh lisa?

xoxo